End of 2009.. 2010 is going to be awesome!

This year has brought some good memories, tears, happiness, and just plain out stress. I still love my God for bringing us through it all!



Just some highlights of how good God has blessed this family:

1. Salvation! Even after all the sins, jacked up thoughts, dumb ideals, lies, and just plain being me, my redeemer lives! I thank God for saving and delivering me from me! I know there is so much for me to do... I know what God has told me to do rather... Why is it so hard to do his will!

2. CHARLOTTE AYLEAH COOK, our bouncing, smiling, stepping little girl. Born on March 7, 2009 at 1:33pm. Her smiling is one of the bright spot of my day and her laugh is contagious. Healthy, smart, and such a blessing to our family.



3. Life, health, and strength from the Lord above. I pray against any sickness, disease, or calamity in our family right now, in Jesus name.



4. At the top of the year, he provided us a beautiful condo to live in... simple, not really. This place was not for rent and we even asked a few months before. Prayed a lot and we decided to go back one more time and check it out. We placed a offer to rent on faith and God return the favor by dropping it almost $100 off our price.



5. September we moved into a 4 bedroom house in Wyoming after just out growing our condo in Kentwood... simple, not really. We looked over and over and just when I decided that we would take this other place, Leah wakes me from my nap to go out to check out a house that I did not think was worth the price. Two days later, and some miracles on the end of the owner, we are now settled in something that has everything we prayed for. We got a guest room, 2 offices, 2 car garage, a Ben, and space for C-Dawg to run around, and 3 bathrooms. Blessed!



6. My brother and his family returned home. I am so glad that he and his family are doing well. He encourages me because I know how much stuff they have been through but I know his source and focus. We know God can do all things but fail! I know God will take care of them in 2010.



7. A reduction in our house in Lansing. I mean a real reduction.... from a tenant to no one for about 3 months. Dad showed up once again! Seeking wisdom from some brothers at Detroit World Outreach (DWO) whoot whoot... we did some paper work and on some faith we got almost $300 off our payment... how does that happen?? Then as that paper work cleared, out of the blue we got a renter.. I can't beat him.



8. Our nanny Liz. At the end of summer and a realization that we needed to get someone to take care of Charlotte. We did not want to inconvenience anyone because I seen what childcare can do to a family. We seriously interviewed more than 7 people and then you start to get dis-courage about things. The last interview brought us a very caring lady who had taken off a semester and could fit our schedule, price, and made us feel at ease. Timing is everything.



9. My relationship with my wife. It got really bad at the end of the year, but guess what, I love her and know this is who God has given me to live the rest of my life out with. I love you Leah Jo Cook. God has really done a work in your this year and I can't wait to see what he has for you in 2010.







Things I want to work on in 2010.



My life story... Living the life, day in and out. I can tell you about my life but sometime I feel judged or even bad for being blessed. Not this year... God is been to good to us and I will be humbled but I will share my story.


Bless all my neices and nephews and even the little one that will be here in September!

I want to help my family more (not enable) then before. Not just with money and gift, but with prayer, and stand in the gap with them. I need them just as much as anyone. I pray that 2010 brings us closer, and renew relationships!


I want to carry out the will of God and the things he placed on my heart a few years ago. Even if it cost me friends, family, and pretty much my life. I have wasted enough of God time in this process.

I want to tithes more than $10,000 this year. I want to advance the kingdom of God, any and every time I get a chance to. I know you my source is and I can't wait to advance to kingdom!

Di (insert) gress or gest....

I'm a firm believer in whats in the bible is fact and everything else is a lie. I understand the principles of sowing and reaping. I grasp the fact that God is love.

I know that Jesus death gave me eternal life. I know my redeemer lives and still reigns! Just got so many questions for God.

Today, helped me to see that even though all that we still need so much help from God. At no point should it be hard to forgive anyone for anything they have done because Jesus died for it all. Words can cut deep and sometime the scaring can be internal and you not see it. It's not very easy to see things within ones own self... easy to point out other faults. Do you have it together?

I'm eager to see if things change and willing to give things another go. However, the guard is up... Forgiveness is high... but trust is low... got nothing but time to heal somethings. God, I need you help on this road because I not one to hold a grudge, but not one to hold my breathe either.

Is it not okay to voice your opinion...

Is it wrong to expect someone to change? Is it wrong to assume that you know the reason for something? Is it wrong to want to be apart of something? Is it wrong to be yourself? Is it wrong to want to fight for something? Is it wrong to exclude people? Is it wrong to be happy? Is it wrong to put your thoughts on your blog, lol?

I ask a lot of questions, lol! I wish I had time to digest things and mediate more.

Thanksgiving

This week will be filled with thoughts and fasting going into Thanksgiving! I've got so much to be thankful for this year and I still feel like what daddy has for me to do is being held up because of something my flesh will not let me do.

I feel like my heart is hurting because I want to do so much for my family and others however, I want to do it on my time and my way. It hurts sometimes to do it his way... it hurts my ego, feelings, and even makes me swallow some much needed pride. Because of things that I have not taken care of I have been struggling with things, I feel God should have given me.

I know that is why I don't have a son yet, or why I am still dealing with the division in my family. Why I am in the position I am in or just the place I am spiritually with God. The dreams I have dreamt have shown me things I should have done, people I could have talked to, and you know the mess up part about it all... God has not destroyed me yet for my disobedience.

That alone is why I am so grateful for the blood and what God has done for me so far. The protection of my house and family... the strength of my wife... the development of my little girl... and the peace he has given me over and over. I swear if it was not for all the seed we have in the ground...

Ahh,
D~

8 months and a day and I wrote about it!

I do my best thinking, early in the morning when my little lady is cutting more teeth. C Dawg, you are 8 months and 1 day as of this morning and I guess you wanted to celebrate by sleeping in daddy's bed and pulling my hair, touching and scraping my face and making as much noise to keep us up.

But your 3rd tooth is here and in a few you will be back to good ole you! So I wrote a short rock course to your day. Listen and tell me what song this is really from.


Ah Bad Name, lol
By DA Cook

Its like 5 in the morn... and I'm not sleep
She give sleep a bad name
Can't play her game... create a cranky state
Please lil girl.. GO TO SLEEP

Night Charlotte.

O' to charlotte

Char-lation Song
By DA Cook
Inspired by: the Revelation Song by PCD


Glory to God,
Who gave us C Dawg
An awesome kid is she

Sing the elmo song…
To the kid who moves along
At 1,000 miles, sometimes it seem

(chorus)
Mercy, grace, and patience
Are the words that describe this blessing
Who was, and is, and already here
Thanks God for this creation we sing
Can you send us a money tree
To take care of everything
Add some sleep at night
Can be a great thing!

Clothed in diapers, from a 30 pack of huggies
A flash of a big grin, eyes are shiny
She crawls, climbs, and is tough
Ain’t even past the seventh month
Over 20 pounds and almost out her seat
Yeah!

(chorus)
Happy, Glad, and Ecstatic
To the girl that half white, and half black
Who eats, sleep, and cry aloud
She busy and reminds me of me
Feel sorry for beatings
At the end we know you still sweet
That why we love you!

(Bridge)
Filled with giggles
And inside laughter
When you tickle her on her sides
Charlotte... what a blessing
All you know will come under testing
Praise God for our good thing
Yeah…

ANOTHER Year

I decided to write down a few things I learn this year.

I can't live life the way you want me to unless you died on a cross and rose again, give or take 3 days.

Nothing in life is worth losing it over (define losing it anyway you want), because again God dies for us all.

I understand why we are to leave and cleave to our significant other. Sometime they are the only ones standing next to you when it get tough.

You can trust everyone's word but remember God did not say be stupid!

Family is suppose to be forever... some members need to be cut off sometime.

Kindness is not being a spineless fool. Sometime harsh correction can be the greatest kindness you can receive.

You word is all you got so protect it!

Love, laugh, and remember to have fun! Even when things look so bleak that all you can do is call on Jesus.

Everyone who calls themselves a friend is not really... that counts for family also.

I have been close to tears more than 5 times this year. Its been a hard ride in 09.

I can do all things throught Christ which strengthens me.

Lastly, names don't always represent the person. LOL, really... IE. Joy, Charity

Still LARGE and in charge

Wide World...

God is so good! In earlier posts, I told you about our house not being rented and waiting on good renters... well while we waited, God took 2 payments and made them disappear and made everything attainable again! I am so glad to have surrounded our family with wise council and thank God for his grace on our family.

I am also excited because on the same post we were looking for God to change somethings around for Leah and her job. Excited and speaking those thing into existence we continued to sow seed. She did not get that job and for some reason we were at peace. Looks like he seen something better for her and I am so excited for her because of her sacrifice. Leah gives so much for this family and I am so Godly proud of all her accomplishment! I am so glad I have a Proverbs 31 woman in my house and one of the best moms on the planet!

This weekend we are giving a chance to sow into the man of God, my spiritual father, and the leader of our tribe, lol. I am so excited to honor the gift that God has birth in our church through this mighty man of God. Thank you Bishop for your continued support, prayers, directions, and love for us. I am so glad you chose to follow God directions and I am so glad God gave you to us!

TGBATG

My broken road has been blessed...

"Bless The Broken Road"

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

I love you Babe!

4 words....

I NEED A VACATION! I think I am taking one right after the EGR vs. GRCS charity game this week.

I need a recharge, refueling, and some insight. Calling to it now, that Sunday I'm in Detroit at DWO. Around my brothers and sisters in Christ and some awesome worship.

Where do we spend the night on Saturday night? Maybe going to see the Tigers!!!

TGBTG

Wore Out!!

Excited about God

I think we as Christians in different denomination sometimes think God can only move in the way we have been taught. Guilty... but I am finding that the same God in one church is the same God that saved me from my sins a long time ago.

I think we place God in a pretty little box and then look out in wonder about why he is moving in other peoples lives. Guilty... until my box or paradigm was completely shatter! My thinking was changed and I have not look back since.

I had to understand that I did not know EVERYTHING (still working on that one), that God send things packaged in small, big, young, older, white, black, mean, nice, family, or stranger packages, directly to you. You have the choice to open and learn or RTS (return to sender) the package. God tells us in all our getting, get an understanding. While your out there ask for some wisdom also.

TGBTG

Some insight from the little C

Here are some 'tidbits' from the life of a six month old:

you can always smile, even when you are sitting in some poop

nothing is ever too far out reach

if I keep rolling, I will eventually get there

I can always brighten someone's day if I smile first

separation is temporary

falling possibly cannot hurt, but if I do fall, I can still smile

noise gets a reaction and so will silence

too much sleep can be a bad thing

tv is boring when you have something to chew on

church is meant for everyone 

I always remember who puts me to bed, feeds me and wakes me up every morning

being flat on your back is not fun when you know how to sit straight up

moving forward works better if I fall forwards and not backwards

jumping higher and faster won't hurt you, but the person who's holding you back

finding time to read can be hard, but its necessary to learn the word(s)

you don't need many things to play with to have fun

prunes aren't for wimps!!

LJC 

Closer to love

Another great song about the everyday... kind of how I feel about family and things around me. It sucks that something might have to happen for something to happen!

Closer to Love Lyrics

She got the call today
One out of the gray
And when the smoke cleared
It took her breath away

She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees

We're gonna get there soon

Chorus
If every building falls
And all the stars fade
We'll still be singing this song
The one they can't take away

I'm gonna get there soon
She's gonna be there too
Cryin' in her room
Prayin' oh, Lord come through

We're gonna get there soon

Oh, it's your light
Oh, it's your way
Pull me out of the dark
Just to shoulder the weight
Cryin' out now
From so far away
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love

Meet me once again
Down off Lake Michigan
Where we could feel the storm blowin'
Down with the wind

And don't apologize
For all the tears you've cried
You've been way too strong now for all your life

Chorus
Cause you are all that I've waited for all of my life
(We're gonna get there)
You are all that I've waited all of my life

You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Pull me closer to love (You are all that I've waited for)
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Closer to love (Cause you are all that I've waited for)
Closer to love

Pull me closer to love

TGBTG

Blessing in seed!

Been a while since we update this thing!

Moved to Grandville and really enjoying the new place! God has really be blessing our family and showing us we need to lean on him for our support and needs. This place was not the place I had in mind, but waiting and hearing God in the last minute took us to a house on a Sunday night. Leah found the house and woke me up to go see it... did not want to go! Drove over and fell in love with it in minutes. The neighborhood is excellent and the people around really feel like friends instead of neighbors.

Any who... we went down to Detroit a few weeks ago to sow our first fruit seed and I swear, we have been screaming harvest time ever since. I guess you can't beat daddy giving no matter how hard you try. Leah and I have gotten to a mind frame that the money belongs to God anyway... so why worry about it. There is no better accountant, financial planner, and money stretcher than our God.

A few things that have happen supernaturally are:

My brother and sister in law are found and back in town. The only place they could go for help is the place they started out at, which is home. We have been praying for them for a while because they have 4 children that we care deeply for. On the back of our envelope we put family thinking that God would move in one directions... but low and behold, he delivered in just the way he wanted! They are now living with my parents and safe, and I am so glad they are back.

Moving!! Yes this will be the 3rd move since we been here in 1 year and 6 months but Miss Charlotte took up so much room. The way this house just fell in our hand was no more than a miracle. We were on our way to rent a house that was 1600 sq feet and the same price. Now we have a beautiful ranch style 2500 sq ft house with my our man cave, a dedicated office for Leah, basketball court in the back, pool table in the basement, 4 bed rooms, and 3 full baths. Wow, thank you so much daddy.

I don't' know how I did it but I found Leah her MAC notebook on line for $750 and it is the generation 2 version. When I found it online at the apple, I could not believe it, so I bought it before the page changed or something happened. She really need this computer because of the job she does online. I just could not bring myself to drop $1,000 on a notebook but I guess if you steward the things you have.. even when they are a piece that burns up your knees, then God opens doors for upgrades.

Our renters moved out... however again God word never fails. I decided to seek wise council and talk to a covenant brother in my church about my situation. Now, we have lost our renters and decided to get it up for sell with a Realtor. The price came back with a net lost of almost $40,000! $40,000! We did not want to rent it anymore because of the risk, and the fact that we are not renting it for the total amount we owe on it anyway. He told me about a few systems and processes and now they are changing our price for us as we speak! Amazing God!

Charlotte is moving, rolling, smiling, cutting teeth, and chatting! She is such a happy baby and we thank God for her everyday. As rotten as I was as a kid, he really gave us such a great girl. She seems to learn something new everyday.

He just continues to bless us and I feel like I continue to fail at what he has for me to do. I still desire for a strong family. I just can't continue to sacrifice my wife and child for it. It hurts and I will continue to pray about it because my whole life, I have been surrounded with people who spoke into my life. God is now sending other not connected by blood or marriage to speak because I have become closer to others.

My only desire is to seek and save that which is lost, destroy the works of the enemy, live an blessed and abundant life, stay in my face before God, and do his perfect will! This is hard because everything in the last sentence goes against this world.

I'm tired.. got so much more!

TGBTG

God's Hand

Awesome song ringing in my spirit... a fitting song for another move of God in our lives!

Desperation Band - Overcome lyrics Seated above, enthroned in the Father's love Destined to die, poured out for all mankind God's only son perfect and spotless one He never sinned, but suffered as if he did Prechorus All authority, every victo-ry is Yours All authority, every victory is Yours Chorus Savior, worthy of honor and glory, worthy of all our praise, You overcame Jesus, awesome in power forever, awesome and great is Your name, You overcame Power in hand speaking the Father's plan You're sending us out, light in this broken land Bridge We will overcome by the blood of the Lamb And the word of our testimony, everyone overcome http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sjYWrpNoCs TGBTG

Children Learn What They Live

CHILDREN LEARN WHAT THEY LIVE 

Dorothy Law Nolte 

If a child lives with criticism,
he learns to condemn. 

If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight. 

If a child lives with fear,
he learns to be apprehensive. 

If a child lives with pity,
he learns to feel sorry for himself. 

If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to be shy. 

If a child lives with jealousy,
he learns what envy is. 

If a child lives with shame,
he learns to feel guilty. 

If a child lives with encouragement,
he learns to be confident. 

If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient. 

If a child lives with praise,
he learns to be appreciative. 

If a child lives with acceptance,
he learns to love. 

If a child lives with approval,
he learns to like himself. 

If a child lives with recognition,
he learns that it is good to have a goal. 

If a child lives with sharing,
he learns about generosity. 

If a child lives with honesty and fairness,
he learns what truth and justice are. 

If a child lives with security,
he learns to have faith in himself and in those about him. 

If a child lives with friendliness,
he learns that the world is a nice place in which to live. 

If you live with serenity,
your child will live with peace of mind. 

With what is your child living?

As seen from another blog...

GHATG - LJ

Decisions

I think sometimes people look at me with there forehead crinkled. I would then challenge you to think to yourself, do I really know why Leah Jo would be making that decision. I would also self evaluate in why knowing is important to you regarding me? Do you have ulterior motives, do you really care to know, without your feelings maybe getting hurt by my decision? Or are you the person that doesn't ask and just assumed why - and thinks you have me all figured out with your own story to why I might have made a certain decision. Something to think about - maybe self evaluate and pray about. Why judge me?

TGBTG2

Underlying blessings

Somethings that either have bothered me or I might have complained about I have realized the underlying blessings!
laundry- I live with people that I love and love me; thankful for the person who wears the clothes and the jobs for which they are worn to
many emails - from jobs that I have been blessed with
dirty dishes - we have money to buy food and have plenty to eat
dirty bathrooms - we are blessed with clean water and the ability to be clean for each other and our jobs

Now I need to realize the blessings before I begin to think of these things as bothers.

TGBTG2

Dedication

Charlotte,

Sunday, June 28, 2009
Detroit World Outreach, Detroit MI

I want to make sure there is documentation of this special day for you kiddo. This is the day where Mom and Dad made some promises, gave you God parents, and brought all your grand parents into one very anointed place. Not to mention, your pastor is now a Bishop, and he messed my mind up with brown water and burnt toast.

A baby dedication is a ceremony in which me and mom (which are believers), and and those special people who care about you, make a commitment before the Lord to submits you to God's will and vows to raise you according to God's Word and God's ways.

We realize that you don't belong to us in the spiritual realm and we know that you are here and blessed to do God's will. In the natural, we will everything in our power to raise you by the word, make sure we are living examples, and be prayerful to protect you. These are the vows we have made because we care about you very much.

Un-popular decisions and times where you will not understand, I implore you to seek God and ask him. Everything we do will not be correct.... everyone we ask you to avoid will not be fair... and mom and dad will not be perfect. BUT, seek God, Charlotte.

We love you, baby.

TGBTB

Harvest time

I can keep smiling because I know God is with me however, I have been dealing with friendships, familiy issues, and crap that been keeping ME up. I am done.. it harvest time! Just wait and see.

TGBTG

your story - that God already knows!

You - you write your story based on your decisions to deal with what God has put into your path, what is it going to show?

Family... when that word is mentioned it can bring a flood of great memories and not so great memories. I challenge you to face the monsters under your bed and in the closet. Many of those scary monsters are ones that snowball into larger ones that can influence your relationship with other family members, marriages and even your children. The monsters can be anything from pride, lack of humbleness, pornography, anger, lack of self-control, sexual sin, irresponsibility with money, rumors, can't let go of things, victim mentality, unforgiveness, bad unhealthy habits, ... the list goes on. If you are ashamed to tell people something, you should self evaluate why you are hiding or are ashamed to mention it to other people. I would hope that if something would happen to you that your heart is taken care of...

So, many times there are people that have tried to talk to you regarding these things, and you may not have been receptive to the truth of what you need to change. I mention these things as like a last call. Please get your heart straight before something happens and its too late. Too late doesn't save you or change you. Instead, it leaves some empty voids - trust me.

LJ

Allowing us to love...

I am not sure how God allow the heart to love something like this. I know I have an undying love for my rib, counter part, side kick, better half, partner, best friend, soul mate.. my wife. However, I had to fall in love with her and continue to love her as Christ did the church. Charlotte is a tab bit different!

That lil girl, bundle of joy, spawn of D, precious gift, god sent present, mini Lea... my daughter, keeps my heart in knots. I love seeing her light up when I get home from work and to see my traits in her and Leah likeness reflected in her smile make me so very happy.

I thank God everyday for the two girls in my life. I am sad in advance b/c I won't be able to hold her like I do right now. She is getting stronger, and more aware of things. She is growing up fast and developing her own personality. She is so far advanced and blows me away at what you can show her one day.. and the next she can do it for herself.

I am not sure how God allow us to love something like this.

TGBTG

TGBTG

I am so amazed at God patience with hard head kids! I am living under grace and mercy b/c I know without it... I'M DONE.

I very smart lady told me to stop reading trash and pick up my bible. I am in a slump and need cadence in my life and to let go of this world and the things that are weighing me down.

Father, I repent me for my lack of obedience, reverence, and leadership. Forgive me for my every sin and wrong, and for my slothfulness and repeated abandonment of what I have been taught. Lord please don't turn away from me, renew your spirit in me... in Christ name.

TGBTG

3.2 million and counting.... SHOUT OUTS!

The Celebration for Helen DeVos Children Hospital Broadcast is over and a huge success again! This year production really took a lot out of me. What was a huge blessing about this year is that I felt a lot of people really kept me together, kind of like the story of Moses and their battle with the Amelek Army.

"Then Amalek came and fought with Israel at Rephidim. So Moses said to Joshua, “Choose for us men, and go out and fight with Amalek. Tomorrow I will stand on the top of the hill with the staff of God in my hand.” So Joshua did as Moses told him, and fought with Amalek, while Moses, Aaron, and Hur went up to the top of the hill. Whenever Moses held up his hand, Israel prevailed, and whenever he lowered his hand, Amalek prevailed. But Moses’ hands grew weary, so they took a stone and put it under him, and he sat on it, while Aaron and Hur held up his hands, one on one side, and the other on the other side. So his hands were steady until the going down of the sun. And Joshua overwhelmed Amalek and his people with the sword. (Exodus 17)

First and foremost, this list is not everyone.. just a few special people in the GR! Thanks first and foremost to God, who continues to show his face in every single event, fundraiser, and instance dealing with my job. Then their is my lovely wife, and best friend who gave me one of the most beautiful little girls in the world. CAn't wait for the tape of the show, babe...Thank you!

Tommy and Brook of STAR 105.7! Wow, everything we touch together just blows up into something amazing. It must be that 2 or 3 gathering effect i heard about. I love you guys!

Kel and Joy, the brains of the stations... Jamon, the brother I never wanted, and I swear Laurie has 8 hands. My sister's who just dropped a line to say hang in there, newbie Michelle "the in-nerd", and can not forget the the communications diva of Helen DeVos Children Hospital... Anne. Thank you guys for really helping me do my job! I really appreiate all the hard work and forgive me for being "eventful" DeWayne.


It feels like my one year anniversary... however I have been in Grand Rapids and working since March 24th or last year. In my employ'o'mental jounrney I have met a lot of people and really needed to give a shout out to a few people who have touched my life and made my job a lot easier!!!


TGBTG

Is this me...

Why is it when you really think you have everything under control, the you lose it all. I guess the key words are "when" and "you". I got so many things running though my head, can't sleep, and still refuse to release it to God. Well not refuse, I think I give it to him and then take it back. I know what I am suppose to do to deal with some issues and don't even want to talk about it. Telethon is in another week, and I am going out of my mind. I keep playing "One More Day" by Diamond Rio, in my head, as if someone has died.. If the wrong people ask me questions, I snap. What is wrong with me. I handle better than this.


Pray for me please, b/c as much I feel I'm in control, I feel so un-stable.

TGBTG

One....

One Life To Love

He never thought he cared so much about the minute hand
Until he started praying for a second chance
If he could only do it all again
He’d trade the long nights that he spent behind his desk
For all he missed
He tells his wife I wish that this moment in this room
Was not me dying but just spending a little time with you


She never thought she cared so much about those little hands
That held on tight the day she left till she was scared to death
Sitting all alone on a hotel bed, the end of the road
The sun has set on her big plans to feel young again
She picks up the phone, dials a number, hears that little voice
That’s haunted every single mile since she made that choice

CHORUS
You only get just one time around, you only get one shot at this
One chance to find out the one thing that you don’t wanna miss
One day when it’s all said and done
I hope you see that it was enough
This one ride, one try, one life to love


This song is awesome!

TGBTG

Grace

Got a fresh revelation on the word "grace". Always thought it meant being covered for the lack by my lord but when yo think about it, grace is much more. I always thought of grace as un-merited favor.. something that keeps us even when/if.

Now I want to live in abundant grace... grace that works in all things and separate me from this world. I want to use the grace that God bestows on me, not imitate the world but use my gift with grace to do thing the world can't and amaze... while giving glory to God. No glory to be but to him... TGBTG. I want grace in wisdom, the way I think, ideas, and decisions according to 2 Corinthians 9:8.

TGBTG

My famous husband...

If you haven't heard the latest from our neck of the woods, we have a television star in our midst...

Part of that world ~C-Dawg Remix

Inspired by Charlotte doing sign along time.


Part of that World, Lil Charmaid

Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
I've got cool ducks that attach my car seat!
Wouldn't you think I'm a babe
The baby who has everything?
Look at these balloons
They're better than gold
How much white substance can one cavern hold?
Walking around here you think
Sure, life is nice
I've got bears, dogs, and ducks a-plenty
I've got books with scary things that jump out
You want soiled diapers?
I've had twenty today!
I think their mad?
No big deal
I Can't help it...

I wanna eat what the big people eat
I wanna toast, toast with butter
Eating on those - what do you call 'em?
Oh - plates!

Talking in my new language, I don't get too far
Screaming is required to get people moving
Straped down in- what's those words again?
a regulated car seat

Can't wait till I walk, that day will be fun
I will get the car, to the beach in the sun
Wanderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world

What would I give, if I could sleep, outside these bars?
What would I say, if mom could understand, just for a second.
Bet'cha outside they understand
That you don't plug your kids with foreign objects
Lets get it right.. fight for our right
I need to be changed!

And ready to know what my daddy knows
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers
What's a spanking and why does it - what's the word?
Hurt?

When's it my turn?
21 is to slow, out of my diapers and on the go?
Keep praying for me
Wish'in I could be
Part of that world

Deal...

This week has been so physically tiring and just a mental strain for me. I guess I'm not on my knees enough or we aren't. I'm glad to have my sister in-law back in town and happy God's favor has allow her to get a job! Just seems like with the good come the bad also. I have a funny feeling that this issue will cause quite a stir within the GR area. I just know that on the other side of confusion comes the blessing. Just fighting the confusion is the problem.

I love confusion because it bring other problems to the forefront. We see our weakness and it give us a chance to humble ourselves and learn.

I feel because of my hurt feeling I have drawn further away from the family and while haven't sinned, I feel like the lack of trying is a big iniquity. I really don't have a problem confronting anyone however, I think some people lack understand. I don't feel the exchanges are even but in the same instance I don't care. I am tired of the back biting and other not dealing with issues from the past. I really just rather avoid.... then to hang out or do anything with people. My strength to deal has become my weakness to just be passive.

Not sure why I am sharing now....

Simply luv

This post is simple... what does love mean to you?

From: D
To: Leah

Would I do it all over again.. ABSOLUTELY YES!!

Love is being stupid together....

What does it mean to you???

TGBTG

Worshiping in and out...

Worship. It was something that I had heard today that made me think of a few things. It made me think of things that I have replaced God with in my life, even the little things.

'Worship is what got you "there", and worship will get you out...'

So, what is your "there". So many times we think of the "there" being bigger than other "there"s, but that is wrong. The idol/sin that people may think of is sexual sin, lying, stealing, etc. On the other side of things, that is no less/more than being unkind, striving for money/success, being manipulative, having ulterior motives, pride, stubbornness, unsubmissiveness, laziness, etc.

So, what is your "there"? Everyone has a hidden/or not hidden thing that they have worshiped instead of God. You just have to be honest with yourself and realize what has brought you to that point of worshiping the wrong thing(s). What have you done to eliminate that "there"?

Another thing that I learned today is that many times people become aware of how to avoid the foot hold of the sin that they become mixed in. But, one thing to think about is that you need to learn to avoid and pray against the temptation that you may experience. The temptation comes before the sin. Would that eliminate your "there"? Just something to think about as I was challenged by the words that went forth today.

Shabach

It's Friday.. but Sunday is coming!!!

Tonight was the first time Charlotte got to experience DWO in all its wonder, lol. I am so glad to be back in Detroit and visiting with family, friends, and fellowship with our church. Stepped into the building, heard the worship, fell to my knees, and almost cried because the presence of the lord was so strong.

As we expected, Pastor really brought a powerful word on a subject that reflect why Jesus died in the first place. He talked to us about using our testimony and bring more people to Christ. Just being bold in love and expressing to people who are lost that God is the only way. "Procrastination for us, could be eternity for someone else, whom God had position us to talk to." That person may not get another day... the price has already been paid for us, so why should we parish?

I love you Lord.. can't wait until Resurrection Sunday!!

TGBTG

A huge change in 1ne month

For all the hollering, crying, and up all nights... we are really blessed. So strong, stubborn, and yet so young! Can hold her head up after one week, and is even smiling right now. Can focus on faces, and has gained more than 1 to 2 pounds already. The Doc thinks she is moving fast for her age.. and Leah and I just think God is amazing. This blessing is called Charlotte Ayleah.. and I am just so happy she is here right now.

TGBTG

Full... and all over the place

Being more Christ like... in this world..

The question is... where are the Christians? Why are we not transparent or out casts in the world. Would we make it in some of the remote destinations of the world, where Christians are being persecuted, raped, and kill for confessing Christ.

I love chatting with people about what they believe. But it drive me nuts when we have to discuss which denomination is better, who's theology is correct, and even how to baptize believers. Whats really funny about all of this is that while we're debating these issues, so many people are heading to hell.

Why is it that we attack our fellow brother and sister in Christ about what they have. We can't congratulate them, or be happy for them. What makes you think we have the right to choose who to forgive, or to help, to save. Why don't weep about all the souls that are going to be lost? Why do we not hate things of the world?

"How can the world hate the master and love the servant." I love that quote so much because it hits home for me. "If your really a Christian, why would you expect the world to understand you." Their is a purpose for my life and the gift of leadership that flows.

Our church really challenges us on some many principles to live by. DWO is more than just walls but a place of unity and love. What we are built on is below;

1. Driven by the purposes of Christ:

* To seek and save that which is lost. Luke 19:10
* To destroy the works of the devil. 1 John. 3:8
* To live and teach others to live an abundant life. John 10:10


2. Development of the person

3. Destiny Development

4. Development of the Family

5. Diversity of People (A church for all colors)

6. A Dynamic Church (Contemporary and Accelerating)

7. A Church/People of Divine Power


I thank God for our Pastor who is directed and moves under the direction of our Maker. I have been places where... I ran with group that don't... Thank God for placing us in a awesome place to live, grow, and learn.

TGBTG

Secrets

Last week I released myself from something that has been holding me captive for such a long time. I shared against all odd a secret that has be wrestling with in my spirit for a very long time. For a long time I felt that I was hitting a glass ceiling and could not break through because I had to release it. I constant lie I told myself and most importantly my wife. I think the biggest lie I lived with was the fact that "it had nothing to do with her anyway," so why tell. It was before our relationship so why should it matter to her. The biggest lies that the devil had me believing and then my pride set in.

It now over and things have changed for us both relational and spiritually. I can love Leah now because my wife knows what I have been hiding and now I can feel again. The problem with secrets are that you can't be yourself or let your guard down because someone might find out.

God must have waited for this moment because what I had to share affects other relationships I have. It will also make me open for criticism for some and a testimony for others.. I guess we will see.

Either way, I feel like a new man and I can only hope Leah will forgive me for what I have done. I love ya babe.

TGBTG

Laying claim to the D

I miss my church family badly! I can't wait for my Charlotte to meet our brothers and sisters who are constantly praying for us. I miss Pastor Ben and Dr. C.. I miss worshiping in a crowd of thousand and the spirit moving. I still recall the time, I got to spend with Pastor Ben and I told him we would be back in Detroit. So tonight at 10:22pm, I have written down my request, claim, and prayer.

I claim right now:
We will be back in Metro Detroit (God timing)
We will both have great jobs in the fields we choose
Detroit will not fall.. it will turn around and if not, we will not participate in the recession anyway
Our house will be bigger and owned
Charlotte will have a new friend
We will be back in the greatest church on the planet

A bold request to some.. however I have seen the hand of God on his people. I will not place him in a box and I know that as long as we are his, we will not go back. To much seed in the ground.. standing on his word... "What he has done for one.. he has to do for another"

Currently song in my heart...

Here I am waiting
Abide in me I pray
Here I am longing
For You
Hide me in Your love
Bring me to my knees
May I know Jesus
More and more

Come live in me
All my life
Take over
Come breathe in me
I will rise
On eagle’s wings.


TGBTG

Charlotte Ayleah

It has been a few weeks since I have had the time to write on this, heck the time to breathe. Since I am at Disney and the room is quite and I'm not sleep deprived, I thought I would pen or type my first message to my lil heart, that is Charlotte.

To my baby...

I have a new song that ring in my spirit and even bring me to my knees when I think about you baby. For 9 months, I talked to you, sang, yelled, and even poked you, because I so wanted to hold you. I am so externally grateful for you health, your smile, you cry, and the opportunity to hold you. I am so glad mommy is doing fine and that God allow her confession about you, to ring true. You were here early, safe, absolutely stunning, and by natural birth.

Now I am not a crying man or even very sensitive but the phase "babies change everything," has held true in our house. You have come in and mommy and daddy have had to work together, take the minutes we can together and make them special. Remember everything worth auguring about are really not important, and continue to ask God for wisdom.

The song that came to my spirit in the last few weeks leading up to you birth is by Tenth Avenue North and titled, By your side. It breaks down into so many different parts for my emotions for you, mommy, and God.


Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face

Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching?
As if I'm not enough?
To where will you go child,
Tell me where will you run?
To where will you run?

These lyrics hit me hard because I feel like I know what I'm doing and I could not be more wrong during delivery. If not for me relaying on God, I would not have been able to coach/help mommy in her time, be calm enough to make a few correct decision about the process, and breathe, lol. But more than that, the last few weeks were hard because when you are blessed, you think to yourself... I got it all. Insurance is their for the baby, a nice house, time to take off work, and not have to worry about anything. You can't pay for grace... I came back to the fact that God is my source.


Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

And I, I love you
And I want you to know
That I, I'll love you
I'll never let you go

Charlotte, these word took the wind out me because, I was just singing them and wrong (might I add), throughtout your womb experience.. then one night I heard the correct words and... the breakdown! Baby C, I.. we will be here for you as best as we can. But even then, God is always there for you. Your not really ours to keep, but I hope we do enough to keep you safe, and in the right direction. I won't make the right calls every time, but I hope the good calls out weigh the bad ones. It is such a joy to see you when I get home, and to see the joy you put in mommy's heart, makes me so happy. I call you blessed, and will only speak good things into your life.

Wow, this post was really hard!! Anyway, I love to see the reasons for the lyrics of songs. Timing is everything in God!


By Your Side’ is just a call to anyone who’s struggling or fighting against God thinking they have to work to earn it. It’s calling them to stop looking for what you can do for God and fix your gaze upon what God has done for you. Let that motivate you. We love because He first loved us.” - Mike Donehey (Tenth Avenue North)

TGBTG

Adapting

You ever wonder what happens when you change and environment of an animal?? Most will die, while others will seem to change and adapt. Not really cool when the game changes when you not ready or prepared. Most of the time its a good things... for the changer, but very bad for the changed.

I think God shakes up our environment and its mostly about time you think things are great. According to biology we are suppose to adapt to changes but it seems to be hard because we just fight against them. Changes in our lives, jobs, personality, walk, etc.. can be devastating if you have walked a few miles in that direction already. The key thing is that, he has given us everything we need already for these changes. This sucks because that tells me that we are suppose to endure and adapt to the things we a facing and just trust.

My only problem is: WHY DID HE MAKES US THE WAY HE DID THEN! Why do men want so much to protect what is theirs, and give us such an ego (not a bad problem, guys.. really) that our judgment is clouded sometimes. Or when we are dis-respected, we just refuse to hear justification on any issue, until the factors we need are restored or God kicks us in the side of the head. There is something about vision their to???

Then he places us with woman (like its written), to live together.. Is that not a joke in itself! Who is just the opposite of what we men are. Provide, love, and partner mentality is great to combat the few things God placed in man. Check the next time things go down if you have either step out of line on one of the above things. Or just jump on the wrong side and throw the things out of whack... stand back and watch.

The world tells us the 3 factors of every marriage problems are sex, communication, and money. I think these are right on... but just on the surface. Take sex... men tend to want more, and when we are refused (in some cases.. other men maybe difference or just lying) we have a ego problem, like we are not needed, while the lady can love in different ways (not fair by the way). Communication... maybe your lady likes to talk about everything and you just want her to shut up, until she say something that you feel is disrespectful to you. Then square one again because, she want a partner mentality in the relationship. Someone who will be their for her and comfort her in her time... a lister. We feel disrespected and shut down, great right! Money.. can fall into a few things also like protection. If we can't provide and she doesn't feel protected.. funny how that works.

Not for anyone at all... just me jotting down something I have learned along the way from some great men and women in my life. Everything is supported by the scriptures and I have seen examples of great relationships. I guess I'm just blessed, but still fall into traps like everyone else.

TGBTG

The power of the tongue... confessions

It has been on my heart to write this down and truly explain how powerful this topic is to me. In a great way, it's part of the many testimonies of my life.

There are many things that I have confessed over, prayed over and believed in. Some of these things include: A godly man that I would marry some day (I did!), jobs, renewed relationships with family, choices regarding school, finances, uncommon pregnancy are just a few things that I (we) have confessed over.

One especially that is dear to my heart in the last few months is my uncommon pregnancy. When D and I started to think about this idea of a child in our future, I held on and was encouraged by my pastor's testimony. She confessed daily that her pregnancies would be healthy and free from the usual inconveniences. So, when I heard that, I began my own. Its amazing to look back in the last nine months and see what GOD has done with that confession. Not only are people amazed by the lack of sickness that I have experienced, but how 'smooth' everything has gone. Its awesome to say that we've been confessing and believing that this would happen throughout the whole pregnancy and it has. Another realm of the pregnancy that I have been confessing and believing for is that the baby would come early. Its amazing to see how many people from their own experiences choose to not be in faith with you or even not encouraging for what you are hoping for. They realize how supernatural the first 9.5 months of the pregnancy have been for us, and then they decide to state what happens in the 'world's bird's eye' of pregnancy life. At first it was really discouraging, but I really am still claiming and confessing that I do deliver early, but in GOD's time. To some degree, I don't think people understood/understand that I have held on to these confessions, and I have seen them come true in many areas of my life. But, it also makes me realize that when someone is believing for a husband, child, or a job, I really think about how I respond to them, because often its something that they may have been confessing/believing in for a long time.

One awesome testimony that I hold dear to my heart is when I was younger, I made a list of all the characteristics that I wanted in my husband. Some of them were superficial desires, like looks or that he enjoyed playing/watching sports, but then I had many others that included: had a good job, provided for his family, prayed with me and his family, had a personal relationship with GOD (just to name a few). I referred to that list often when I met new men/boys back in the day. I can honestly say that through tragedy/sadness, comes goodness and how awesome GOD truly is. I look at my marriage and the person that GOD put into my life, and see so many wonderful things. My husband is a great provider for my (our) family. I see his relationship with God manifesting to new levels for him and his family. He encourages me to strengthen my relationship through meditation and prayer. He has interpersonal relationship skills that covers over me where mine are lacking. So, I look back to the past in positive ways of reflection and see how GOD was only preparing and molding me to meet, be courted by, marry, and now have his children. But, I held true to the things that I believe GOD wanted me to have in my future husband. I sought GOD and believed that these characteristics were things that would be possessed in a future husband that GOD would have for me. We can truly be powerful if we set our eyes on things above and believe in the impossible for GOD to make them possible in HIS time.

LJ

The time is now...

Broken... Baby... Breakthrough...

more later

tgbtg

Music... makes the people, come together

I love long road trips because it gives you time to pray, listen, and just plain rock out to old cd's. This weekend was no exception for and my victims (wife and baby) who got to sit and hear me sing.

I heard a few songs and they brought back some very cool memories for me:

Listen to our hearts by Geoff Moore & SCC
This song hits me in a few ways b/c it was at a time when I was broken and lost. It was also a time when I first started to see that very sexy lady Leah Jo, lol. Every time it comes on it is bittersweet because that is a time in my life, I would never ever want to change. This is my favorite lines to the song;

We will use the words we know
To tell you what an awesome God You are
But words are not enough
To tell you of our love
So listen to our hearts


Top of my lungs by P,C &D
This song will forever remind me of my the pregnancy of my first child. Every time this song comes on, I turn it up and rock out. Its like giving God total praise and nothing even considering who or what is next to you, looking at you, or just thinks you are crazy. I am so amazed and grateful and God has allowed Leah to have a supernatural 36.5 weeks so far and that the unknown is going so smooth. Check out these lyrics;

Words of worship
Rise like a river within me
Thoughts to express are so many
Wanna bless You, God

Can’t be silent
I think of the mercies You show me
My lips begin overflowing
Great is Your love

Such gratitude
For all that You do
Jesus to You

These guys are really becoming a fan of Phillips, Craig and Dean because everything they make seems to have one main focus and that is to praise God.

A few more songs...

Praise you in this storm by Casting Crowns
This song brings back all the memories about buying out first house in Lansing. It took a lot for me to make a decision and it was not until I knew relaxed in God, then things were great.

I belong to you by Rev. Rance Allen
This song goes way back b/c in my childhood. I used to pretend that I was a preacher and we played church in our bedroom. My brother and sister took care of the worship and I brought the word. My mother used to play gospel music all day on Sunday and we would sign along. I miss the closeness I had with my sibling and the fun we had in church.

I love singing and listening to lyrics of songs. So many forms to listen to (worship, praise, contemporary, and hymns, etc.) I fall in the worship area, and enjoy mediation and spend time with God and thanking him for all his blessing.

What song and style are you??

TGBTG

Friends or Foe

I heard one of the greatest quote about family and those close to you, a few days ago. Listening to WCSG, the host asked, "Why would you try to score against a teammate". I thought about it and then realized that to may times we fight against those we love (or suppose to). For the life of me, I can't understand why if we bump, knock, speak ill, or do something to those we don't know, but quickly rectify the issue... then hold any kind of wrong doing our family has done for years. His question is why won't we help our family score... why won't we lend a hand, and make sure everything is okay? We need to be happy about what God is doing for families and our families. Stop doing things with hidden agendas behind them and just enjoy one another. I continue to make sure, I(we) blessed any and everyone we can, with everything God has given to us. I have to look past hurt and ill feelings because I still want grace and forgiveness in my life. Remeber God will not forgive you if you can't extend forgiviness to someone else. I'm taking a very good look at myself.

TGBTG

We wrote history...

I will never forget the 20th day of January, 2009! History was made in a country that is one of the greatest countries on the face of the earth. President B.H Obama took oath and is now the 44 President of the United States, as the first black president. The crowd was full of black, white, old, young, veterans, seasoned people, and anyone and everyone who weathered the cold.

I watched and listen to a man who will need so much help to correct a land in turmoil, fear, hurt, and is distracted by everything.. but God. I don't expect him to change the world in 4 years, nor do I expect him to work miracles. I pray that God will have his hand on this country and its leaders. I pray that wisdom will fill the room and heads in the way in which they should lead. I believe that God placed in the White House who he wanted. I still firmly believe the heart of a king is in the hands of God. Obama is our leader, but as Americans we need so badly to seek God. I will celebrate a moment that I never thought I would ever see. I will rejoice in a time where a color barrier has been cracked, plowed, and broken down. I smile because I have seen change, while I'm alive.

TGBTG

Finished for now

Over the last couple of weeks, I have been stressed, frustrated, doubtful, and down right angry about my situation. I question would I be this mess if I was still in Detroit? I have questioned where if any help would come from, emotionally, spiritually, and found nothing. God has a way of dropping in my spirit, past teaching from my pastor in Detroit.. blessing comes after the confusion. Now, I can't complain to much about being blessed because I know he has taken care of me more than even I felt is sufficient. I really needed someone at that time... NOTHING. Not saying my wife was not enough, but she and child should be relaxing and getting ready to meet each other face to face.

So, we began to sow seed again for what we are believing in and would you believe it, God showed up again. I guess not having TV for about 3 weeks, and listening for the call of God would have paid off. Now, for those who don't know about all our testimonies, everything that we have has been some how blessed in such a way, that if not for God, I don't know how it happened. We call, and gave a price that no sane person would have taken. The sane person called back and drop out asking price down, lol. So we are paying a lot less than what they wanted, and kept us within our budget. The greatest part is, that it is where my wife wanted to stay at anyway. The colors are great, and God is awesome.

I am so grateful for all the prayers that have gone up for us. I needed this to happen for me to see that God is in control and he will answer in his time. I also, needed to see that my line to God has to be connected at all times and not just the time I need him. I felt alone for the most part because I was looking for someone to rescue us. What I got was some time on my face in the presence of God and a renewed confidence that he has always been there.

"This is a call, this is a call out.. because every time I fall down, I reach out to you"

TGBTG

My prayer

It has truly been a awesome hoilday for our family. God is really blessing and testing us in these times. I am so glad a have such a confidence in God to provide for us and he has never fail so far! Anywho, I have been day dreaming a lot, about the time when my child arrives and grows up. How I get to play sports, talk about the bird and the bees, and really show them how a man and a women should interact. Tough job... right!! I am so excited to share the word of God, and train in the way God is leading. It will be fun to see how this changes the very dyinamics of the family. I know the future will be bright for them because we are sowing seed in their name already, and fasting a praying against things that I know are hinderance. I can't wait to shape their future and help them become whatever it is they want to be. To create a path where the struggles I face won't knock them down. The very curses from my father and my father, father will be no more. These thing scare me because I have had to handle them in my walk.

I hope this child is like their mother in a scense, they are creative and intellegent. They will in the mist of problems, seek God and read his word. I hope they have the same heart to forgive and look for the greater good in situation even when it looks bad. I hope they can stand up to grief, disappointment, and hurt. I hope this kid has the will to step out of the box and try new things, meet new people and in the mist of it all stand alone.

I hope my child is like me in the ways that even with nothing, thought prayer I have made it. I hope they can survive the door that will be closed down because everyone won't understand them. I hope they can say what they mean, mean what they say, and yet in still be a real person. I hope they find themselves quickly and not allow ingorance to dictate their relationship with people in this world. I hope they have the strength like me to push thought the "no's" and still be humble enought to admit when they are wrong in front of people, family, and friends. I hope they have a focus to better themsleves, family and all that matter to them in this life.

I hope they have a giving heart to help whenever they can without looking for someone to pay them. I hope they have compassion for lost souls and those who don't know Christ. It is my sincere pray that God keeps, protects, and bless my child.

TGBTG


PS.. if you are in the praying mood, throw up a few for us.

Learning to live with what life gives you...

and thankful for who your sharing your life with!

Its been an interesting couple of weeks that is for sure. Happy that the holidays went well, but sad to see what was left behind (water). Some of you know what I am talking about. Sorry to say, that the majority of the cleanup has been done by my wonderful husband. From packing up the kitchen to moving all my books once again. He has not complained (maybe once when some collective plate fell on him!), and I need to give him alot of thanks. Thanks, babe!

Many of the things that he has done so I can rest have not gone unnoticed. I appreciate all of them. And, he knows to keep Cheerios and milk nearby and some chocolate. I know we will get through this time, and there is no one I would rather do it with than him. He brightens up my day by singing the Lion King (all the way to church!!) and making up songs for our baby! Thumper, now named Jabs, is always on the move, especially when he/she hears daddy singing.

Most of all, its been a moment in time that we have relied upon God's strength, timing and wisdom. I can see how we have grown through this and allowed it to make us stronger. But, we've also had our bumps in our road as well. I recognize your responsible protection over this family, and thank you for it. I love you.

Well, time for us (lil one and I) to go to bed for some relaxing zzz's with a hopeful tomorrow ahead of us and a thankful heart!

TGBTG - the wifey and child