Di (insert) gress or gest....

I'm a firm believer in whats in the bible is fact and everything else is a lie. I understand the principles of sowing and reaping. I grasp the fact that God is love.

I know that Jesus death gave me eternal life. I know my redeemer lives and still reigns! Just got so many questions for God.

Today, helped me to see that even though all that we still need so much help from God. At no point should it be hard to forgive anyone for anything they have done because Jesus died for it all. Words can cut deep and sometime the scaring can be internal and you not see it. It's not very easy to see things within ones own self... easy to point out other faults. Do you have it together?

I'm eager to see if things change and willing to give things another go. However, the guard is up... Forgiveness is high... but trust is low... got nothing but time to heal somethings. God, I need you help on this road because I not one to hold a grudge, but not one to hold my breathe either.

Is it not okay to voice your opinion...

Is it wrong to expect someone to change? Is it wrong to assume that you know the reason for something? Is it wrong to want to be apart of something? Is it wrong to be yourself? Is it wrong to want to fight for something? Is it wrong to exclude people? Is it wrong to be happy? Is it wrong to put your thoughts on your blog, lol?

I ask a lot of questions, lol! I wish I had time to digest things and mediate more.

Thanksgiving

This week will be filled with thoughts and fasting going into Thanksgiving! I've got so much to be thankful for this year and I still feel like what daddy has for me to do is being held up because of something my flesh will not let me do.

I feel like my heart is hurting because I want to do so much for my family and others however, I want to do it on my time and my way. It hurts sometimes to do it his way... it hurts my ego, feelings, and even makes me swallow some much needed pride. Because of things that I have not taken care of I have been struggling with things, I feel God should have given me.

I know that is why I don't have a son yet, or why I am still dealing with the division in my family. Why I am in the position I am in or just the place I am spiritually with God. The dreams I have dreamt have shown me things I should have done, people I could have talked to, and you know the mess up part about it all... God has not destroyed me yet for my disobedience.

That alone is why I am so grateful for the blood and what God has done for me so far. The protection of my house and family... the strength of my wife... the development of my little girl... and the peace he has given me over and over. I swear if it was not for all the seed we have in the ground...

Ahh,
D~

8 months and a day and I wrote about it!

I do my best thinking, early in the morning when my little lady is cutting more teeth. C Dawg, you are 8 months and 1 day as of this morning and I guess you wanted to celebrate by sleeping in daddy's bed and pulling my hair, touching and scraping my face and making as much noise to keep us up.

But your 3rd tooth is here and in a few you will be back to good ole you! So I wrote a short rock course to your day. Listen and tell me what song this is really from.


Ah Bad Name, lol
By DA Cook

Its like 5 in the morn... and I'm not sleep
She give sleep a bad name
Can't play her game... create a cranky state
Please lil girl.. GO TO SLEEP

Night Charlotte.

O' to charlotte

Char-lation Song
By DA Cook
Inspired by: the Revelation Song by PCD


Glory to God,
Who gave us C Dawg
An awesome kid is she

Sing the elmo song…
To the kid who moves along
At 1,000 miles, sometimes it seem

(chorus)
Mercy, grace, and patience
Are the words that describe this blessing
Who was, and is, and already here
Thanks God for this creation we sing
Can you send us a money tree
To take care of everything
Add some sleep at night
Can be a great thing!

Clothed in diapers, from a 30 pack of huggies
A flash of a big grin, eyes are shiny
She crawls, climbs, and is tough
Ain’t even past the seventh month
Over 20 pounds and almost out her seat
Yeah!

(chorus)
Happy, Glad, and Ecstatic
To the girl that half white, and half black
Who eats, sleep, and cry aloud
She busy and reminds me of me
Feel sorry for beatings
At the end we know you still sweet
That why we love you!

(Bridge)
Filled with giggles
And inside laughter
When you tickle her on her sides
Charlotte... what a blessing
All you know will come under testing
Praise God for our good thing
Yeah…