uS, C, and little BabY

Save the last Smile for me.. LuKas

2011-03-11T21:51:00.001-05:00

Save the last... remixed

Oh, I know that your smile is fine like sparkling milk go and show your gums
Laugh and smile but while we're apart don't your ever fart because you smell real bad
But don't forget who's carrying you home and in your crib you're gonna be
So LuKas, save the last cheese for me mmmm

Baby don't you know we love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much

You can dance go and carry on with Miss Charlotte at toe but don’t destroy the house
If mommy asks it wasn’t you
But if her voice get high just bat your light brown eyes and she’ll leave you alone
But don't forget who's changing your dipes your clothes and the time you puked on C
So LuKas save the last smile for me

~TGBTG

Happy Birthday Charlotte

2011-03-07T20:28:00.003-05:00

Tonight was a bit difference for me and Charlotte. I few memories, a new prayer, and some tears as I put my 2 year old little girl. Now, if you know me at all... tears are a lot for me. I joke, correct, and try to hardest to protect my mini me, and all I could do as I kiss her and prayed was cry.

I think it is funny that every boy in my family started with a little girl. Kemani, Charlotte, and TBD (Mike's daughter). I hope if anything ever happen to me that my brothers will protect my little girl just like there own! I believe God has placed such a blessing on the oldest girls in our family. I know they won't make the same mistakes that we did, our wife's, or even our mother.

I remember Charlotte's birth like it was yesterday, and even the blessing I spoke on her as she turned a year old. I remember the songs, the baths, and even the first movie we took in together. I remember holding her in my cup of my arm, and singing Elmo's World to make her sleep. I wish she wouldn't grow up.

Year two blessings for Charlotte is:

May the Lord bless you, and keep you;
May the Lord make His face shine on you,
And be gracious to you;
May the Lord lift up His countenance upon you,
And give you peace.
So they shall invoke My name on the sons of Israel, and I
shall bless them.

~Numbers 6:22-27

You have nothing to worry about right now... That's my job but while I continue to ask for grace, you continue to trust in God.

I love to Charlotte AyLeah

Looking for the kitties

2011-02-26T17:50:00.002-05:00

my babes - minus one

2011-02-17T09:39:00.002-05:00

Imagine That Remixed

2010-12-08T20:10:00.003-05:00

I have watch way to much Elmo and Sesame Street! I decide that I need a song to remix and if you have not heard Ernie break the real song down, then you are at a lost.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7lKcoF5rwg

Imagine That remixed

Sometime… I image, that I would like to be
The hippest coolest daddy, that C Dawg’s ever seen
She would grow up in our castle like the princess in land
Learn from daddy wisdom depart in his awesomest life span
And I would fight off losing men from her window top
With my might sling shot in my hand, I’ll hit them with a rock!
And Charlotte with be so happy like watching an episode of Glee
She would turn around and cheer real loud
All that will be for me…
And I tip my hat… imagine that….
Imagine that… imagine that

Sometime… I image, that I would like to be
A man, Lukas could mimic and be proud as he can be
And we would wonder in the jungle, fighting lions, bears and snakes
Build Noah’s art, an occasional scratch and fart, and pray lying on our face
And jump in trees and grab bananas just to make a milk shakes
We will scream real loud, play in the mud, and chew with our mouths open
No one to tell us no, or where to go, because we own this place
And I tip my hat… imagine that….
Imagine that… imagine that

~TGBTG

2010-11-10T14:10:00.003-05:00

Some exciting updates in our life lately:

D going back to school

L still in school

C potty training, learning ABCs, and counting

D.L. growing like a weed

2010-10-15T11:29:00.001-04:00

Can you say?....

2010-10-01T10:45:00.001-04:00

Food for Thought

2010-08-18T11:27:00.002-04:00

Your life is what your thoughts make it. - marcus aurelius

Biblical Challenge - How do your thoughts line up with your destiny and work in the Kingdom?

Snippets of the Summer 2010 Legacy

2010-07-12T15:00:00.005-04:00

I have really been thinking a lot about the legacies I (we) want to pass down to our children. What do I have or don't have that I should be passing down? What are things that I don't want to pass down to my children? What Biblical principles do I want my children to know and implement? What life skills are important that my children should know and by what age?

In C, I see such a mixture of both D and I. It is really a blessing to

be a mom to such a great little girl, who steals many hearts with her personality and smile! I didn't know it was possible after finding my best friend, my husband, to love another person with such depth. I keep the snippets of her growing up in my heart.

Rejoice in the time of hurt.....

2010-06-22T01:38:00.002-04:00

This month as proved to be a very touching and moving month for the Cook side of this family. We lost someone who I consider to be the "Godfather" of a 13 sibling army. My grandmother is now hangout with Jesus as she tragically taken from us on May 31, 2010. Her and my uncle Al (mom's twin brother) died in a house fired at my aunts house in Memphis, TN. It's hard to think or grasp because we lost kind of 2 leaders at one time. Grandma kept everything together and I can remember when we would all gather at her house with a ton of cousins and fellowship. If you don't understand what I mean, she had over 150 grandchildren when she left here. The most touching part to the funeral was hearing a story from some family friends and how grandma gave her life to Christ. She is safe now but we still wish we could have said goodbye before you left. Uncle Al will always be remember as a hero t this family. He gave his life trying to help out grandma. We are pretty sure that he could have made it but unselfishly tried to pull out grandma. Still chokes me up knowing he took a risk to worry about others and not just Al.

While I know they had never met Charlotte and all of her glory... I kind of regret not taking the time to see my family. We rejoice in the fact that God's hand is on our family but we are not as close as we should. We knock FB and other avenues to communicate however, I have had some constant lines with my cousins because of FB. I so desire a better relationship and plan to get Leah, C and baby down soon. Besides the word going forth and Aunie's request for everyone to get saved... the reunion message was clear. Love on your family while you have them here and communicate the best way you can even if It is by FB.

God is love
D~

SWAGGER WAGON - so many families rock the vans like this.

2010-06-02T21:59:00.000-04:00

The best rap period!!!!!

Phillips Craig & Dean "Nothing To Prove"

2010-05-24T02:11:00.001-04:00

I love this song.. I want it played at my home going. Is it selfish that I want to go first b/c it would be to hard for me to lose any of my girls. The song is very touching and the words hit home.

TGBTG

Back

2010-05-23T23:33:00.002-04:00

Sorry for the long MIA! I got more songs, prayers, and picture coming for this blog. Stay tune and remember this... It's my blog, lol

DeWayne

A few more days....

2010-05-23T22:27:00.007-04:00

Hey Brittany.. is that you?
Wow, your man is so tall
yeah, yeah I'm glad we got to meet you!

Leah Jo ain't that girl
we talk to Sally about... at holiday lunch
munching on bread sticks
brought by the waiters at Olive Garden

Yeah, life has change again
just remember you have friends
Us, we prayed and we hit
and the next thing you know, with us your were living
trapped in a dream, could have been God's mission
to welcome home, Leah's teaching friend

you wake up and Cdawg
is screaming down the hallway
you take a trip to Detroit..
DeWayne sings the whole way
you head off to your job
got a ton of complaints

the dog ate my work... my arm is broke
my bag is lost... didn't know is was due
lost my planner... hate this school
sometime you swear God is picking on you! (yeah picking...)

Corbin told you, that he love you, then got sent to Kansas
he starting a new life for both of you, WOW
now he is just waiting for you
you, you been to a few cities
mostly Lincoln and at Palmair paradise
hang on tight, waiting for the time to be right
in Kansas, Corbin is through

Well, only a few more days in this stay
enjoy your time and babies can wait
but if you ever come back to pure Michigan again
promise us you'll stop in
to see some old friends
we'll make ya grin

You'll miss us and teardrops will fall down your face
until you see Corbin at the airport
and then give him ah big embrace
we will miss you but or statement will not change that much

Disrespected Simba and our popcorn friend
your lucky Charlotte like you a lot
your going away and better come back
or we're going to find you and beat you up

Written for and directed to Brittany Lynn
*insire by Rascal Flatts "These Days"

Stand!

2010-03-02T01:08:00.004-05:00

It's early in the morning and this is just my simple prayer for a few things that have really been bothering me, God. You told us to seek ye first the kingdom... and all will be added, (matt 6:33) and without doubt I believe that.

We have pressed and sown into your kingdom and have seen your glory time and time again. You word has never come back void and because we are in a reaping time I am boldly asking for a few things and will lock down on your word and promise to bring these things to past or work on our behalf.

I am in a state of fear because of what I have done in my past. I am tired of looking over my shoulder at mistakes and blocking the celebration/blessing you have given us because I fear my past mistakes will destroy anything good you have done. I know you are a forgiving God and you cast those things into the sea of forgetfulness. Its my turn and... devil you have no more hold over me. God is just to forgive us... thanks for dreams Daddy!

Supernatural pregnancy again!

Also, we have seed and have sown for family and I watched you bring back family members... save homes... and deliver so many times. For those testimonies, I ask again that you take care of homes that are empty on behalf of our family. Change minds and move GOOD people to rent homes that are empty in our family, NOW... in the name of Jesus.

I also call out for you to move employment on behalf of our bro and sister in Christ. I thank you for the connections in GR to help, but I also ask that your send favor before them and in the human resource offices and grant jobs, in the name of Jesus. I have seen you open up doors and make ways for me and because you are God, this is small to you but it mean so much to us. I know you have perfect timing and your will and way is above ours, but please grant us these requests father.

So now we are boldly locking down on this in prayer for these requests and will stand and watch your glory. YOU CAN'T FAIL... I HAVE NEVER SEEN YOU DO IT EVER!

tgbtg

a day

2010-02-16T22:22:00.001-05:00

have you had one of those days: when you had breakfast at 6am, you drove early into work and you were late, you didn't eat lunch, you were accused/reminded that you should have said something earlier, you know you haven't had enough coffee, you had to be bigger than a person of more authority and was told it would still be uncomfortable, you know that your God-time is necessary, you were reminded that you were late for a meeting that really didn't have to happen, someone finally told you that your article of clothing was really inside out, you spoke too many words and tried to shove too many in the other person's mouth, you know the clothes don't fit and didn't want to be reminded, but you tried them on anyways, you already know that sorry isn't enough, you know that girl time is becoming more essential in these times, you know you need to relax more and you went to bed too early too many times already, but you need to do more.

Life can be unfair, but God is a just and merciful God.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

What do I know of holy.....

2010-02-07T22:29:00.003-05:00

Blogger peeps...

Its reaping time... not money or gifts but people. I got seriously smacked down tonight when I had an opportunity to talk about God and just dropped the ball.

WHY am I going to let my friends just die and go to hell when I have such good news to share. Its so hard and my heart is heavy... what do I know?

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made you too small
I never feared you at all, no
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

So what do I know...
What do I know of holy...

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were might to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who you might be
The slightest hint of you brought me down to my knees

So what do I know...
What do I know of holy...

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life it's name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

~Addison Road, what do I know of holy

tgbtg

My new confession

2010-02-07T21:50:00.000-05:00

Psalm 91 (New King James Version)

Safety of Abiding in the Presence of God

¹ He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
² I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God, in Him I will trust.”

³ Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler^{a]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[a]}
And from the perilous pestilence.
⁴ He shall cover you with His feathers,
And under His wings you shall take refuge;
His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
⁵ You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
⁶ Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.

⁷ A thousand may fall at your side,
And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
⁸ Only with your eyes shall you look,
And see the reward of the wicked.

⁹ Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
¹⁰ No evil shall befall you,
Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
¹¹ For He shall give His angels charge over you,
To keep you in all your ways.
¹² In their hands they shall bear you up,
Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
¹³ You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.

¹⁴ “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
¹⁵ He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will deliver him and honor him.
¹⁶ With long life I will satisfy him,
And show him My salvation.”

LJC

Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee. Ps. 119:11

2010-01-26T13:39:00.002-05:00

It has been my goal to start memorizing verses. I found this great information about the Bible Bee and am excited to begin. I think that this is really great to get kids excited about.

Here are some great study tools for yourself and the family...

http://www.biblebee.org/biblebeestudymaterials.php

Enjoy!

ljc

God... Why!

2010-01-23T15:39:00.002-05:00

Ahh...

I think God has a funny bone and a continues to smile at his children. Even when I think he is not as funny and he might think he is... does that make sense?

I got a few for him...

Why do I pray, sow, and fast for my family and we are still not close??? -no offensive to anyone*

Why does the second Leah and I get one thing taken care of, then something else pops up?

Why is GR winters so long and suckie??

Why does good things happen and then the things that we have had chances to change in the past, rear their ugly heads and almost cause the good to be undone?

Why do I question the goodness of the father, or test him all the time?

Why is Charlotte so cute, lol???

How come we can finish the work that has nothing to do with the kingdom in days and forget about the kingdom work and just can't quite finish what God has place in front of us?

I has so much weighing on my heart... it will be funny to see how we fare at this next test.

hmm,
D~

My husband

2010-01-17T08:30:00.001-05:00

1. Provision
How does he provide for me and Charlotte? I think it goes far beyond a paycheck. He gives his family spiritual guidance by exemplifying cadence though sowing, meditation, regular fasting, and joyful noise.
He also provides around the 'home'. He cooks, cleans, launders clothes, fixes the cars, keeps gas in the cars, just to name a few...

2. Love
Early on in our relationship, we learned our love languages as individuals so that we can grow together as a couple. We are still learning (like every healthy relationship) how to best love each other through life's exciting and challenging times. He has worked harder at loving me in ways that may not always be easy for any man to give and give willingly.
3. Partner mentality
My husband is mindful of communicating plans for our family, money management,

ljc

Songs can speak words...

2010-01-14T20:15:00.003-05:00

This is such a great song for the world dealing with Haiti and other problem. A call to action. Special prayer for all those victims of that tragic earthquake 1/11/2010.

Rest in peace Teddy.

Wake up everybody no more sleepin in bed
No more backward thinkin time for thinkin ahead
The world has changed so very much
From what it used to be so
there is so much hatred war an' poverty
Wake up all the teachers time to teach a new way
Maybe then they'll listen to whatcha have to say
Cause they're the ones who's coming up and the world is in their hands
when you teach the children teach em the very best you can.

Wake up all the doctors make the ol' people well
They're the ones who suffer an' who catch all the hell
But they don't have so very long before the Judgement Day
So won'tcha make them happy before they pass away.
Wake up all the builders time to build a new land
I know we can do it if we all lend a hand
The only thing we have to do is put it in our mind
Surely things will work out they do it every time.

The world won't get no better if we just let it be
The world won't get no better we gotta change it yeah, just you and me

TGBTG

Smiling into 2010

2010-01-04T17:18:00.002-05:00

I challenge you to smile at yourself in the mirror and make faces. It always works for me. We are to blessed to frown, unless your face is stuck like that and you can't help it.

Smile big and brighten up someone else's day... it catchy!

tgbtg

End of 2009.. 2010 is going to be awesome!

2009-12-31T20:19:00.003-05:00

This year has brought some good memories, tears, happiness, and just plain out stress. I still love my God for bringing us through it all!

Just some highlights of how good God has blessed this family:

1. Salvation! Even after all the sins, jacked up thoughts, dumb ideals, lies, and just plain being me, my redeemer lives! I thank God for saving and delivering me from me! I know there is so much for me to do... I know what God has told me to do rather... Why is it so hard to do his will!

2. CHARLOTTE AYLEAH COOK, our bouncing, smiling, stepping little girl. Born on March 7, 2009 at 1:33pm. Her smiling is one of the bright spot of my day and her laugh is contagious. Healthy, smart, and such a blessing to our family.

3. Life, health, and strength from the Lord above. I pray against any sickness, disease, or calamity in our family right now, in Jesus name.

4. At the top of the year, he provided us a beautiful condo to live in... simple, not really. This place was not for rent and we even asked a few months before. Prayed a lot and we decided to go back one more time and check it out. We placed a offer to rent on faith and God return the favor by dropping it almost $100 off our price.

5. September we moved into a 4 bedroom house in Wyoming after just out growing our condo in Kentwood... simple, not really. We looked over and over and just when I decided that we would take this other place, Leah wakes me from my nap to go out to check out a house that I did not think was worth the price. Two days later, and some miracles on the end of the owner, we are now settled in something that has everything we prayed for. We got a guest room, 2 offices, 2 car garage, a Ben, and space for C-Dawg to run around, and 3 bathrooms. Blessed!

6. My brother and his family returned home. I am so glad that he and his family are doing well. He encourages me because I know how much stuff they have been through but I know his source and focus. We know God can do all things but fail! I know God will take care of them in 2010.

7. A reduction in our house in Lansing. I mean a real reduction.... from a tenant to no one for about 3 months. Dad showed up once again! Seeking wisdom from some brothers at Detroit World Outreach (DWO) whoot whoot... we did some paper work and on some faith we got almost $300 off our payment... how does that happen?? Then as that paper work cleared, out of the blue we got a renter.. I can't beat him.

8. Our nanny Liz. At the end of summer and a realization that we needed to get someone to take care of Charlotte. We did not want to inconvenience anyone because I seen what childcare can do to a family. We seriously interviewed more than 7 people and then you start to get dis-courage about things. The last interview brought us a very caring lady who had taken off a semester and could fit our schedule, price, and made us feel at ease. Timing is everything.

9. My relationship with my wife. It got really bad at the end of the year, but guess what, I love her and know this is who God has given me to live the rest of my life out with. I love you Leah Jo Cook. God has really done a work in your this year and I can't wait to see what he has for you in 2010.

Things I want to work on in 2010.

My life story... Living the life, day in and out. I can tell you about my life but sometime I feel judged or even bad for being blessed. Not this year... God is been to good to us and I will be humbled but I will share my story.

Bless all my neices and nephews and even the little one that will be here in September!

I want to help my family more (not enable) then before. Not just with money and gift, but with prayer, and stand in the gap with them. I need them just as much as anyone. I pray that 2010 brings us closer, and renew relationships!

I want to carry out the will of God and the things he placed on my heart a few years ago. Even if it cost me friends, family, and pretty much my life. I have wasted enough of God time in this process.

I want to tithes more than $10,000 this year. I want to advance the kingdom of God, any and every time I get a chance to. I know you my source is and I can't wait to advance to kingdom!

Di (insert) gress or gest....

2009-11-20T22:46:00.003-05:00

I'm a firm believer in whats in the bible is fact and everything else is a lie. I understand the principles of sowing and reaping. I grasp the fact that God is love.

I know that Jesus death gave me eternal life. I know my redeemer lives and still reigns! Just got so many questions for God.

Today, helped me to see that even though all that we still need so much help from God. At no point should it be hard to forgive anyone for anything they have done because Jesus died for it all. Words can cut deep and sometime the scaring can be internal and you not see it. It's not very easy to see things within ones own self... easy to point out other faults. Do you have it together?

I'm eager to see if things change and willing to give things another go. However, the guard is up... Forgiveness is high... but trust is low... got nothing but time to heal somethings. God, I need you help on this road because I not one to hold a grudge, but not one to hold my breathe either.

Is it not okay to voice your opinion...

Is it wrong to expect someone to change? Is it wrong to assume that you know the reason for something? Is it wrong to want to be apart of something? Is it wrong to be yourself? Is it wrong to want to fight for something? Is it wrong to exclude people? Is it wrong to be happy? Is it wrong to put your thoughts on your blog, lol?

I ask a lot of questions, lol! I wish I had time to digest things and mediate more.

Thanksgiving

2009-11-15T19:01:00.003-05:00

This week will be filled with thoughts and fasting going into Thanksgiving! I've got so much to be thankful for this year and I still feel like what daddy has for me to do is being held up because of something my flesh will not let me do.

I feel like my heart is hurting because I want to do so much for my family and others however, I want to do it on my time and my way. It hurts sometimes to do it his way... it hurts my ego, feelings, and even makes me swallow some much needed pride. Because of things that I have not taken care of I have been struggling with things, I feel God should have given me.

I know that is why I don't have a son yet, or why I am still dealing with the division in my family. Why I am in the position I am in or just the place I am spiritually with God. The dreams I have dreamt have shown me things I should have done, people I could have talked to, and you know the mess up part about it all... God has not destroyed me yet for my disobedience.

That alone is why I am so grateful for the blood and what God has done for me so far. The protection of my house and family... the strength of my wife... the development of my little girl... and the peace he has given me over and over. I swear if it was not for all the seed we have in the ground...

Ahh,
D~

8 months and a day and I wrote about it!

2009-11-08T07:07:00.003-05:00

I do my best thinking, early in the morning when my little lady is cutting more teeth. C Dawg, you are 8 months and 1 day as of this morning and I guess you wanted to celebrate by sleeping in daddy's bed and pulling my hair, touching and scraping my face and making as much noise to keep us up.

But your 3rd tooth is here and in a few you will be back to good ole you! So I wrote a short rock course to your day. Listen and tell me what song this is really from.

Ah Bad Name, lol
By DA Cook

Its like 5 in the morn... and I'm not sleep
She give sleep a bad name
Can't play her game... create a cranky state
Please lil girl.. GO TO SLEEP

Night Charlotte.

O' to charlotte

2009-11-01T16:56:00.000-05:00

Char-lation Song
By DA Cook
Inspired by: the Revelation Song by PCD

Glory to God,
Who gave us C Dawg
An awesome kid is she

Sing the elmo song…
To the kid who moves along
At 1,000 miles, sometimes it seem

(chorus)
Mercy, grace, and patience
Are the words that describe this blessing
Who was, and is, and already here
Thanks God for this creation we sing
Can you send us a money tree
To take care of everything
Add some sleep at night
Can be a great thing!

Clothed in diapers, from a 30 pack of huggies
A flash of a big grin, eyes are shiny
She crawls, climbs, and is tough
Ain’t even past the seventh month
Over 20 pounds and almost out her seat
Yeah!

(chorus)
Happy, Glad, and Ecstatic
To the girl that half white, and half black
Who eats, sleep, and cry aloud
She busy and reminds me of me
Feel sorry for beatings
At the end we know you still sweet
That why we love you!

(Bridge)
Filled with giggles
And inside laughter
When you tickle her on her sides
Charlotte... what a blessing
All you know will come under testing
Praise God for our good thing
Yeah…

ANOTHER Year

2009-10-25T22:09:00.003-04:00

I decided to write down a few things I learn this year.

I can't live life the way you want me to unless you died on a cross and rose again, give or take 3 days.

Nothing in life is worth losing it over (define losing it anyway you want), because again God dies for us all.

I understand why we are to leave and cleave to our significant other. Sometime they are the only ones standing next to you when it get tough.

You can trust everyone's word but remember God did not say be stupid!

Family is suppose to be forever... some members need to be cut off sometime.

Kindness is not being a spineless fool. Sometime harsh correction can be the greatest kindness you can receive.

You word is all you got so protect it!

Love, laugh, and remember to have fun! Even when things look so bleak that all you can do is call on Jesus.

Everyone who calls themselves a friend is not really... that counts for family also.

I have been close to tears more than 5 times this year. Its been a hard ride in 09.

I can do all things throught Christ which strengthens me.

Lastly, names don't always represent the person. LOL, really... IE. Joy, Charity

Still LARGE and in charge

2009-10-13T02:04:00.002-04:00

Wide World...

God is so good! In earlier posts, I told you about our house not being rented and waiting on good renters... well while we waited, God took 2 payments and made them disappear and made everything attainable again! I am so glad to have surrounded our family with wise council and thank God for his grace on our family.

I am also excited because on the same post we were looking for God to change somethings around for Leah and her job. Excited and speaking those thing into existence we continued to sow seed. She did not get that job and for some reason we were at peace. Looks like he seen something better for her and I am so excited for her because of her sacrifice. Leah gives so much for this family and I am so Godly proud of all her accomplishment! I am so glad I have a Proverbs 31 woman in my house and one of the best moms on the planet!

This weekend we are giving a chance to sow into the man of God, my spiritual father, and the leader of our tribe, lol. I am so excited to honor the gift that God has birth in our church through this mighty man of God. Thank you Bishop for your continued support, prayers, directions, and love for us. I am so glad you chose to follow God directions and I am so glad God gave you to us!

TGBATG

My broken road has been blessed...

2009-10-06T22:16:00.004-04:00

"Bless The Broken Road"

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

I love you Babe!

4 words....

2009-09-28T23:07:00.000-04:00

I NEED A VACATION! I think I am taking one right after the EGR vs. GRCS charity game this week.

I need a recharge, refueling, and some insight. Calling to it now, that Sunday I'm in Detroit at DWO. Around my brothers and sisters in Christ and some awesome worship.

Where do we spend the night on Saturday night? Maybe going to see the Tigers!!!

TGBTG

Wore Out!!

2009-09-24T20:11:00.002-04:00

Excited about God

2009-09-22T08:21:00.003-04:00

I think we as Christians in different denomination sometimes think God can only move in the way we have been taught. Guilty... but I am finding that the same God in one church is the same God that saved me from my sins a long time ago.

I think we place God in a pretty little box and then look out in wonder about why he is moving in other peoples lives. Guilty... until my box or paradigm was completely shatter! My thinking was changed and I have not look back since.

I had to understand that I did not know EVERYTHING (still working on that one), that God send things packaged in small, big, young, older, white, black, mean, nice, family, or stranger packages, directly to you. You have the choice to open and learn or RTS (return to sender) the package. God tells us in all our getting, get an understanding. While your out there ask for some wisdom also.

TGBTG

Some insight from the little C

2009-09-14T01:01:00.003-04:00

Here are some 'tidbits' from the life of a six month old:

you can always smile, even when you are sitting in some poop

nothing is ever too far out reach

if I keep rolling, I will eventually get there

I can always brighten someone's day if I smile first

separation is temporary

falling possibly cannot hurt, but if I do fall, I can still smile

noise gets a reaction and so will silence

too much sleep can be a bad thing

tv is boring when you have something to chew on

church is meant for everyone

I always remember who puts me to bed, feeds me and wakes me up every morning

being flat on your back is not fun when you know how to sit straight up

moving forward works better if I fall forwards and not backwards

jumping higher and faster won't hurt you, but the person who's holding you back

finding time to read can be hard, but its necessary to learn the word(s)

you don't need many things to play with to have fun

prunes aren't for wimps!!

LJC

Closer to love

2009-09-09T19:38:00.001-04:00

Another great song about the everyday... kind of how I feel about family and things around me. It sucks that something might have to happen for something to happen!

Closer to Love Lyrics

She got the call today
One out of the gray
And when the smoke cleared
It took her breath away

She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess we're all one phone call from our knees

We're gonna get there soon

Chorus
If every building falls
And all the stars fade
We'll still be singing this song
The one they can't take away

I'm gonna get there soon
She's gonna be there too
Cryin' in her room
Prayin' oh, Lord come through

We're gonna get there soon

Oh, it's your light
Oh, it's your way
Pull me out of the dark
Just to shoulder the weight
Cryin' out now
From so far away
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love

Meet me once again
Down off Lake Michigan
Where we could feel the storm blowin'
Down with the wind

And don't apologize
For all the tears you've cried
You've been way too strong now for all your life

Chorus
Cause you are all that I've waited for all of my life
(We're gonna get there)
You are all that I've waited all of my life

You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Pull me closer to love (You are all that I've waited for)
You pull me closer to love
Closer to love
Closer to love (Cause you are all that I've waited for)
Closer to love

Pull me closer to love

TGBTG

Blessing in seed!

2009-09-02T23:13:00.002-04:00

Been a while since we update this thing!

Moved to Grandville and really enjoying the new place! God has really be blessing our family and showing us we need to lean on him for our support and needs. This place was not the place I had in mind, but waiting and hearing God in the last minute took us to a house on a Sunday night. Leah found the house and woke me up to go see it... did not want to go! Drove over and fell in love with it in minutes. The neighborhood is excellent and the people around really feel like friends instead of neighbors.

Any who... we went down to Detroit a few weeks ago to sow our first fruit seed and I swear, we have been screaming harvest time ever since. I guess you can't beat daddy giving no matter how hard you try. Leah and I have gotten to a mind frame that the money belongs to God anyway... so why worry about it. There is no better accountant, financial planner, and money stretcher than our God.

A few things that have happen supernaturally are:

My brother and sister in law are found and back in town. The only place they could go for help is the place they started out at, which is home. We have been praying for them for a while because they have 4 children that we care deeply for. On the back of our envelope we put family thinking that God would move in one directions... but low and behold, he delivered in just the way he wanted! They are now living with my parents and safe, and I am so glad they are back.

Moving!! Yes this will be the 3rd move since we been here in 1 year and 6 months but Miss Charlotte took up so much room. The way this house just fell in our hand was no more than a miracle. We were on our way to rent a house that was 1600 sq feet and the same price. Now we have a beautiful ranch style 2500 sq ft house with my our man cave, a dedicated office for Leah, basketball court in the back, pool table in the basement, 4 bed rooms, and 3 full baths. Wow, thank you so much daddy.

I don't' know how I did it but I found Leah her MAC notebook on line for $750 and it is the generation 2 version. When I found it online at the apple, I could not believe it, so I bought it before the page changed or something happened. She really need this computer because of the job she does online. I just could not bring myself to drop $1,000 on a notebook but I guess if you steward the things you have.. even when they are a piece that burns up your knees, then God opens doors for upgrades.

Our renters moved out... however again God word never fails. I decided to seek wise council and talk to a covenant brother in my church about my situation. Now, we have lost our renters and decided to get it up for sell with a Realtor. The price came back with a net lost of almost $40,000! $40,000! We did not want to rent it anymore because of the risk, and the fact that we are not renting it for the total amount we owe on it anyway. He told me about a few systems and processes and now they are changing our price for us as we speak! Amazing God!

Charlotte is moving, rolling, smiling, cutting teeth, and chatting! She is such a happy baby and we thank God for her everyday. As rotten as I was as a kid, he really gave us such a great girl. She seems to learn something new everyday.

He just continues to bless us and I feel like I continue to fail at what he has for me to do. I still desire for a strong family. I just can't continue to sacrifice my wife and child for it. It hurts and I will continue to pray about it because my whole life, I have been surrounded with people who spoke into my life. God is now sending other not connected by blood or marriage to speak because I have become closer to others.

My only desire is to seek and save that which is lost, destroy the works of the enemy, live an blessed and abundant life, stay in my face before God, and do his perfect will! This is hard because everything in the last sentence goes against this world.

I'm tired.. got so much more!

TGBTG

God's Hand

2009-08-18T00:48:00.003-04:00

Awesome song ringing in my spirit... a fitting song for another move of God in our lives!

Desperation Band - Overcome lyrics

Seated above, enthroned in the Father's love
Destined to die, poured out for all mankind
God's only son perfect and spotless one
He never sinned, but suffered as if he did

Prechorus
All authority, every victo-ry is Yours
All authority, every victory is Yours

Chorus

Savior, worthy of honor and glory, worthy of all our praise, You overcame
Jesus, awesome in power forever, awesome and great is Your name, You overcame

Power in hand speaking the Father's plan
You're sending us out, light in this broken land

Bridge
We will overcome by the blood of the Lamb
And the word of our testimony, everyone overcome

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sjYWrpNoCs

TGBTG

Children Learn What They Live

2009-08-07T19:40:00.002-04:00

CHILDREN LEARN WHAT THEY LIVE

Dorothy Law Nolte

If a child lives with criticism,
he learns to condemn.

If a child lives with hostility,
he learns to fight.

If a child lives with fear,
he learns to be apprehensive.

If a child lives with pity,
he learns to feel sorry for himself.

If a child lives with ridicule,
he learns to be shy.

If a child lives with jealousy,
he learns what envy is.

If a child lives with shame,
he learns to feel guilty.

If a child lives with encouragement,
he learns to be confident.

If a child lives with tolerance,
he learns to be patient.

If a child lives with praise,
he learns to be appreciative.

If a child lives with acceptance,
he learns to love.

If a child lives with approval,
he learns to like himself.

If a child lives with recognition,
he learns that it is good to have a goal.

If a child lives with sharing,
he learns about generosity.

If a child lives with honesty and fairness,
he learns what truth and justice are.

If a child lives with security,
he learns to have faith in himself and in those about him.

If a child lives with friendliness,
he learns that the world is a nice place in which to live.

If you live with serenity,
your child will live with peace of mind.

With what is your child living?

As seen from another blog...

GHATG - LJ

Decisions

2009-07-25T00:05:00.003-04:00

I think sometimes people look at me with there forehead crinkled. I would then challenge you to think to yourself, do I really know why Leah Jo would be making that decision. I would also self evaluate in why knowing is important to you regarding me? Do you have ulterior motives, do you really care to know, without your feelings maybe getting hurt by my decision? Or are you the person that doesn't ask and just assumed why - and thinks you have me all figured out with your own story to why I might have made a certain decision. Something to think about - maybe self evaluate and pray about. Why judge me?

TGBTG2

Underlying blessings

2009-07-24T23:29:00.005-04:00

Somethings that either have bothered me or I might have complained about I have realized the underlying blessings!
laundry- I live with people that I love and love me; thankful for the person who wears the clothes and the jobs for which they are worn to
many emails - from jobs that I have been blessed with
dirty dishes - we have money to buy food and have plenty to eat
dirty bathrooms - we are blessed with clean water and the ability to be clean for each other and our jobs

Now I need to realize the blessings before I begin to think of these things as bothers.

TGBTG2

Dedication

2009-07-18T09:30:00.006-04:00

Charlotte,

Sunday, June 28, 2009
Detroit World Outreach, Detroit MI

I want to make sure there is documentation of this special day for you kiddo. This is the day where Mom and Dad made some promises, gave you God parents, and brought all your grand parents into one very anointed place. Not to mention, your pastor is now a Bishop, and he messed my mind up with brown water and burnt toast.

A baby dedication is a ceremony in which me and mom (which are believers), and and those special people who care about you, make a commitment before the Lord to submits you to God's will and vows to raise you according to God's Word and God's ways.

We realize that you don't belong to us in the spiritual realm and we know that you are here and blessed to do God's will. In the natural, we will everything in our power to raise you by the word, make sure we are living examples, and be prayerful to protect you. These are the vows we have made because we care about you very much.

Un-popular decisions and times where you will not understand, I implore you to seek God and ask him. Everything we do will not be correct.... everyone we ask you to avoid will not be fair... and mom and dad will not be perfect. BUT, seek God, Charlotte.

We love you, baby.

TGBTB

Harvest time

2009-07-08T19:55:00.003-04:00

I can keep smiling because I know God is with me however, I have been dealing with friendships, familiy issues, and crap that been keeping ME up. I am done.. it harvest time! Just wait and see.

TGBTG

your story - that God already knows!

2009-07-05T23:51:00.004-04:00

You - you write your story based on your decisions to deal with what God has put into your path, what is it going to show?

Family... when that word is mentioned it can bring a flood of great memories and not so great memories. I challenge you to face the monsters under your bed and in the closet. Many of those scary monsters are ones that snowball into larger ones that can influence your relationship with other family members, marriages and even your children. The monsters can be anything from pride, lack of humbleness, pornography, anger, lack of self-control, sexual sin, irresponsibility with money, rumors, can't let go of things, victim mentality, unforgiveness, bad unhealthy habits, ... the list goes on. If you are ashamed to tell people something, you should self evaluate why you are hiding or are ashamed to mention it to other people. I would hope that if something would happen to you that your heart is taken care of...

So, many times there are people that have tried to talk to you regarding these things, and you may not have been receptive to the truth of what you need to change. I mention these things as like a last call. Please get your heart straight before something happens and its too late. Too late doesn't save you or change you. Instead, it leaves some empty voids - trust me.

LJ

Allowing us to love...

2009-06-23T22:53:00.003-04:00

I am not sure how God allow the heart to love something like this. I know I have an undying love for my rib, counter part, side kick, better half, partner, best friend, soul mate.. my wife. However, I had to fall in love with her and continue to love her as Christ did the church. Charlotte is a tab bit different!

That lil girl, bundle of joy, spawn of D, precious gift, god sent present, mini Lea... my daughter, keeps my heart in knots. I love seeing her light up when I get home from work and to see my traits in her and Leah likeness reflected in her smile make me so very happy.

I thank God everyday for the two girls in my life. I am sad in advance b/c I won't be able to hold her like I do right now. She is getting stronger, and more aware of things. She is growing up fast and developing her own personality. She is so far advanced and blows me away at what you can show her one day.. and the next she can do it for herself.

I am not sure how God allow us to love something like this.

TGBTG

TGBTG

2009-06-18T00:38:00.004-04:00

I am so amazed at God patience with hard head kids! I am living under grace and mercy b/c I know without it... I'M DONE.

I very smart lady told me to stop reading trash and pick up my bible. I am in a slump and need cadence in my life and to let go of this world and the things that are weighing me down.

Father, I repent me for my lack of obedience, reverence, and leadership. Forgive me for my every sin and wrong, and for my slothfulness and repeated abandonment of what I have been taught. Lord please don't turn away from me, renew your spirit in me... in Christ name.

TGBTG

3.2 million and counting.... SHOUT OUTS!

2009-06-02T20:00:00.004-04:00

The Celebration for Helen DeVos Children Hospital Broadcast is over and a huge success again! This year production really took a lot out of me. What was a huge blessing about this year is that I felt a lot of people really kept me together, kind of like the story of Moses and their battle with the Amelek Army.

"Then Amalek came and fought with Israel at Rephidim. So Moses said to Joshua, “Choose for us men, and go out and fight with Amalek. Tomorrow I will stand on the top of the hill with the staff of God in my hand.” So Joshua did as Moses told him, and fought with Amalek, while Moses, Aaron, and Hur went up to the top of the hill. Whenever Moses held up his hand, Israel prevailed, and whenever he lowered his hand, Amalek prevailed. But Moses’ hands grew weary, so they took a stone and put it under him, and he sat on it, while Aaron and Hur held up his hands, one on one side, and the other on the other side. So his hands were steady until the going down of the sun. And Joshua overwhelmed Amalek and his people with the sword. (Exodus 17)

First and foremost, this list is not everyone.. just a few special people in the GR! Thanks first and foremost to God, who continues to show his face in every single event, fundraiser, and instance dealing with my job. Then their is my lovely wife, and best friend who gave me one of the most beautiful little girls in the world. CAn't wait for the tape of the show, babe...Thank you!

Tommy and Brook of STAR 105.7! Wow, everything we touch together just blows up into something amazing. It must be that 2 or 3 gathering effect i heard about. I love you guys!

Kel and Joy, the brains of the stations... Jamon, the brother I never wanted, and I swear Laurie has 8 hands. My sister's who just dropped a line to say hang in there, newbie Michelle "the in-nerd", and can not forget the the communications diva of Helen DeVos Children Hospital... Anne. Thank you guys for really helping me do my job! I really appreiate all the hard work and forgive me for being "eventful" DeWayne.

It feels like my one year anniversary... however I have been in Grand Rapids and working since March 24th or last year. In my employ'o'mental jounrney I have met a lot of people and really needed to give a shout out to a few people who have touched my life and made my job a lot easier!!!

TGBTG

Is this me...

2009-05-23T19:10:00.003-04:00

Why is it when you really think you have everything under control, the you lose it all. I guess the key words are "when" and "you". I got so many things running though my head, can't sleep, and still refuse to release it to God. Well not refuse, I think I give it to him and then take it back. I know what I am suppose to do to deal with some issues and don't even want to talk about it. Telethon is in another week, and I am going out of my mind. I keep playing "One More Day" by Diamond Rio, in my head, as if someone has died.. If the wrong people ask me questions, I snap. What is wrong with me. I handle better than this.

Pray for me please, b/c as much I feel I'm in control, I feel so un-stable.

TGBTG

One....

2009-05-21T19:42:00.002-04:00

One Life To Love

He never thought he cared so much about the minute hand
Until he started praying for a second chance
If he could only do it all again
He’d trade the long nights that he spent behind his desk
For all he missed
He tells his wife I wish that this moment in this room
Was not me dying but just spending a little time with you

She never thought she cared so much about those little hands
That held on tight the day she left till she was scared to death
Sitting all alone on a hotel bed, the end of the road
The sun has set on her big plans to feel young again
She picks up the phone, dials a number, hears that little voice
That’s haunted every single mile since she made that choice

CHORUS
You only get just one time around, you only get one shot at this
One chance to find out the one thing that you don’t wanna miss
One day when it’s all said and done
I hope you see that it was enough
This one ride, one try, one life to love

This song is awesome!

TGBTG

Grace

2009-05-17T15:51:00.003-04:00

Got a fresh revelation on the word "grace". Always thought it meant being covered for the lack by my lord but when yo think about it, grace is much more. I always thought of grace as un-merited favor.. something that keeps us even when/if.

Now I want to live in abundant grace... grace that works in all things and separate me from this world. I want to use the grace that God bestows on me, not imitate the world but use my gift with grace to do thing the world can't and amaze... while giving glory to God. No glory to be but to him... TGBTG. I want grace in wisdom, the way I think, ideas, and decisions according to 2 Corinthians 9:8.

TGBTG

My famous husband...

2009-05-06T21:14:00.002-04:00

If you haven't heard the latest from our neck of the woods, we have a television star in our midst...

Part of that world ~C-Dawg Remix

2009-04-28T00:08:00.002-04:00

Inspired by Charlotte doing sign along time.

Part of that World, Lil Charmaid

Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
I've got cool ducks that attach my car seat!
Wouldn't you think I'm a babe
The baby who has everything?
Look at these balloons
They're better than gold
How much white substance can one cavern hold?
Walking around here you think
Sure, life is nice
I've got bears, dogs, and ducks a-plenty
I've got books with scary things that jump out
You want soiled diapers?
I've had twenty today!
I think their mad?
No big deal
I Can't help it...

I wanna eat what the big people eat
I wanna toast, toast with butter
Eating on those - what do you call 'em?
Oh - plates!

Talking in my new language, I don't get too far
Screaming is required to get people moving
Straped down in- what's those words again?
a regulated car seat

Can't wait till I walk, that day will be fun
I will get the car, to the beach in the sun
Wanderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world

What would I give, if I could sleep, outside these bars?
What would I say, if mom could understand, just for a second.
Bet'cha outside they understand
That you don't plug your kids with foreign objects
Lets get it right.. fight for our right
I need to be changed!

And ready to know what my daddy knows
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers
What's a spanking and why does it - what's the word?
Hurt?

When's it my turn?
21 is to slow, out of my diapers and on the go?
Keep praying for me
Wish'in I could be
Part of that world

Deal...

2009-04-24T17:00:00.002-04:00

This week has been so physically tiring and just a mental strain for me. I guess I'm not on my knees enough or we aren't. I'm glad to have my sister in-law back in town and happy God's favor has allow her to get a job! Just seems like with the good come the bad also. I have a funny feeling that this issue will cause quite a stir within the GR area. I just know that on the other side of confusion comes the blessing. Just fighting the confusion is the problem.

I love confusion because it bring other problems to the forefront. We see our weakness and it give us a chance to humble ourselves and learn.

I feel because of my hurt feeling I have drawn further away from the family and while haven't sinned, I feel like the lack of trying is a big iniquity. I really don't have a problem confronting anyone however, I think some people lack understand. I don't feel the exchanges are even but in the same instance I don't care. I am tired of the back biting and other not dealing with issues from the past. I really just rather avoid.... then to hang out or do anything with people. My strength to deal has become my weakness to just be passive.

Not sure why I am sharing now....

Simply luv

2009-04-17T22:59:00.004-04:00

This post is simple... what does love mean to you?

From: D
To: Leah

Would I do it all over again.. ABSOLUTELY YES!!

Love is being stupid together....

What does it mean to you???

TGBTG

Worshiping in and out...

2009-04-15T20:46:00.004-04:00

Worship. It was something that I had heard today that made me think of a few things. It made me think of things that I have replaced God with in my life, even the little things.

'Worship is what got you "there", and worship will get you out...'

So, what is your "there". So many times we think of the "there" being bigger than other "there"s, but that is wrong. The idol/sin that people may think of is sexual sin, lying, stealing, etc. On the other side of things, that is no less/more than being unkind, striving for money/success, being manipulative, having ulterior motives, pride, stubbornness, unsubmissiveness, laziness, etc.

So, what is your "there"? Everyone has a hidden/or not hidden thing that they have worshiped instead of God. You just have to be honest with yourself and realize what has brought you to that point of worshiping the wrong thing(s). What have you done to eliminate that "there"?

Another thing that I learned today is that many times people become aware of how to avoid the foot hold of the sin that they become mixed in. But, one thing to think about is that you need to learn to avoid and pray against the temptation that you may experience. The temptation comes before the sin. Would that eliminate your "there"? Just something to think about as I was challenged by the words that went forth today.

Shabach

It's Friday.. but Sunday is coming!!!

2009-04-10T23:32:00.003-04:00

Tonight was the first time Charlotte got to experience DWO in all its wonder, lol. I am so glad to be back in Detroit and visiting with family, friends, and fellowship with our church. Stepped into the building, heard the worship, fell to my knees, and almost cried because the presence of the lord was so strong.

As we expected, Pastor really brought a powerful word on a subject that reflect why Jesus died in the first place. He talked to us about using our testimony and bring more people to Christ. Just being bold in love and expressing to people who are lost that God is the only way. "Procrastination for us, could be eternity for someone else, whom God had position us to talk to." That person may not get another day... the price has already been paid for us, so why should we parish?

I love you Lord.. can't wait until Resurrection Sunday!!

TGBTG

A huge change in 1ne month

2009-04-07T22:07:00.004-04:00

For all the hollering, crying, and up all nights... we are really blessed. So strong, stubborn, and yet so young! Can hold her head up after one week, and is even smiling right now. Can focus on faces, and has gained more than 1 to 2 pounds already. The Doc thinks she is moving fast for her age.. and Leah and I just think God is amazing. This blessing is called Charlotte Ayleah.. and I am just so happy she is here right now.

TGBTG

Full... and all over the place

2009-04-02T23:17:00.003-04:00

Being more Christ like... in this world..

The question is... where are the Christians? Why are we not transparent or out casts in the world. Would we make it in some of the remote destinations of the world, where Christians are being persecuted, raped, and kill for confessing Christ.

I love chatting with people about what they believe. But it drive me nuts when we have to discuss which denomination is better, who's theology is correct, and even how to baptize believers. Whats really funny about all of this is that while we're debating these issues, so many people are heading to hell.

Why is it that we attack our fellow brother and sister in Christ about what they have. We can't congratulate them, or be happy for them. What makes you think we have the right to choose who to forgive, or to help, to save. Why don't weep about all the souls that are going to be lost? Why do we not hate things of the world?

"How can the world hate the master and love the servant." I love that quote so much because it hits home for me. "If your really a Christian, why would you expect the world to understand you." Their is a purpose for my life and the gift of leadership that flows.

Our church really challenges us on some many principles to live by. DWO is more than just walls but a place of unity and love. What we are built on is below;

1. Driven by the purposes of Christ:

* To seek and save that which is lost. Luke 19:10
* To destroy the works of the devil. 1 John. 3:8
* To live and teach others to live an abundant life. John 10:10

2. Development of the person

3. Destiny Development

4. Development of the Family

5. Diversity of People (A church for all colors)

6. A Dynamic Church (Contemporary and Accelerating)

7. A Church/People of Divine Power

I thank God for our Pastor who is directed and moves under the direction of our Maker. I have been places where... I ran with group that don't... Thank God for placing us in a awesome place to live, grow, and learn.

TGBTG

Secrets

2009-03-29T21:45:00.004-04:00

Last week I released myself from something that has been holding me captive for such a long time. I shared against all odd a secret that has be wrestling with in my spirit for a very long time. For a long time I felt that I was hitting a glass ceiling and could not break through because I had to release it. I constant lie I told myself and most importantly my wife. I think the biggest lie I lived with was the fact that "it had nothing to do with her anyway," so why tell. It was before our relationship so why should it matter to her. The biggest lies that the devil had me believing and then my pride set in.

It now over and things have changed for us both relational and spiritually. I can love Leah now because my wife knows what I have been hiding and now I can feel again. The problem with secrets are that you can't be yourself or let your guard down because someone might find out.

God must have waited for this moment because what I had to share affects other relationships I have. It will also make me open for criticism for some and a testimony for others.. I guess we will see.

Either way, I feel like a new man and I can only hope Leah will forgive me for what I have done. I love ya babe.

TGBTG

Laying claim to the D

2009-03-26T21:56:00.004-04:00

I miss my church family badly! I can't wait for my Charlotte to meet our brothers and sisters who are constantly praying for us. I miss Pastor Ben and Dr. C.. I miss worshiping in a crowd of thousand and the spirit moving. I still recall the time, I got to spend with Pastor Ben and I told him we would be back in Detroit. So tonight at 10:22pm, I have written down my request, claim, and prayer.

I claim right now:
We will be back in Metro Detroit (God timing)
We will both have great jobs in the fields we choose
Detroit will not fall.. it will turn around and if not, we will not participate in the recession anyway
Our house will be bigger and owned
Charlotte will have a new friend
We will be back in the greatest church on the planet

A bold request to some.. however I have seen the hand of God on his people. I will not place him in a box and I know that as long as we are his, we will not go back. To much seed in the ground.. standing on his word... "What he has done for one.. he has to do for another"

Currently song in my heart...

Here I am waiting
Abide in me I pray
Here I am longing
For You
Hide me in Your love
Bring me to my knees
May I know Jesus
More and more

Come live in me
All my life
Take over
Come breathe in me
I will rise
On eagle’s wings.

TGBTG

Charlotte Ayleah

2009-03-21T16:31:00.009-04:00

It has been a few weeks since I have had the time to write on this, heck the time to breathe. Since I am at Disney and the room is quite and I'm not sleep deprived, I thought I would pen or type my first message to my lil heart, that is Charlotte.

To my baby...

I have a new song that ring in my spirit and even bring me to my knees when I think about you baby. For 9 months, I talked to you, sang, yelled, and even poked you, because I so wanted to hold you. I am so externally grateful for you health, your smile, you cry, and the opportunity to hold you. I am so glad mommy is doing fine and that God allow her confession about you, to ring true. You were here early, safe, absolutely stunning, and by natural birth.

Now I am not a crying man or even very sensitive but the phase "babies change everything," has held true in our house. You have come in and mommy and daddy have had to work together, take the minutes we can together and make them special. Remember everything worth auguring about are really not important, and continue to ask God for wisdom.

The song that came to my spirit in the last few weeks leading up to you birth is by Tenth Avenue North and titled, By your side. It breaks down into so many different parts for my emotions for you, mommy, and God.

Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face

Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching?
As if I'm not enough?
To where will you go child,
Tell me where will you run?
To where will you run?

These lyrics hit me hard because I feel like I know what I'm doing and I could not be more wrong during delivery. If not for me relaying on God, I would not have been able to coach/help mommy in her time, be calm enough to make a few correct decision about the process, and breathe, lol. But more than that, the last few weeks were hard because when you are blessed, you think to yourself... I got it all. Insurance is their for the baby, a nice house, time to take off work, and not have to worry about anything. You can't pay for grace... I came back to the fact that God is my source.

Here at my side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
Please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

And I, I love you
And I want you to know
That I, I'll love you
I'll never let you go

Charlotte, these word took the wind out me because, I was just singing them and wrong (might I add), throughtout your womb experience.. then one night I heard the correct words and... the breakdown! Baby C, I.. we will be here for you as best as we can. But even then, God is always there for you. Your not really ours to keep, but I hope we do enough to keep you safe, and in the right direction. I won't make the right calls every time, but I hope the good calls out weigh the bad ones. It is such a joy to see you when I get home, and to see the joy you put in mommy's heart, makes me so happy. I call you blessed, and will only speak good things into your life.

Wow, this post was really hard!! Anyway, I love to see the reasons for the lyrics of songs. Timing is everything in God!

By Your Side’ is just a call to anyone who’s struggling or fighting against God thinking they have to work to earn it. It’s calling them to stop looking for what you can do for God and fix your gaze upon what God has done for you. Let that motivate you. We love because He first loved us.” - Mike Donehey (Tenth Avenue North)

TGBTG

Adapting

2009-03-06T09:09:00.002-05:00

You ever wonder what happens when you change and environment of an animal?? Most will die, while others will seem to change and adapt. Not really cool when the game changes when you not ready or prepared. Most of the time its a good things... for the changer, but very bad for the changed.

I think God shakes up our environment and its mostly about time you think things are great. According to biology we are suppose to adapt to changes but it seems to be hard because we just fight against them. Changes in our lives, jobs, personality, walk, etc.. can be devastating if you have walked a few miles in that direction already. The key thing is that, he has given us everything we need already for these changes. This sucks because that tells me that we are suppose to endure and adapt to the things we a facing and just trust.

My only problem is: WHY DID HE MAKES US THE WAY HE DID THEN! Why do men want so much to protect what is theirs, and give us such an ego (not a bad problem, guys.. really) that our judgment is clouded sometimes. Or when we are dis-respected, we just refuse to hear justification on any issue, until the factors we need are restored or God kicks us in the side of the head. There is something about vision their to???

Then he places us with woman (like its written), to live together.. Is that not a joke in itself! Who is just the opposite of what we men are. Provide, love, and partner mentality is great to combat the few things God placed in man. Check the next time things go down if you have either step out of line on one of the above things. Or just jump on the wrong side and throw the things out of whack... stand back and watch.

The world tells us the 3 factors of every marriage problems are sex, communication, and money. I think these are right on... but just on the surface. Take sex... men tend to want more, and when we are refused (in some cases.. other men maybe difference or just lying) we have a ego problem, like we are not needed, while the lady can love in different ways (not fair by the way). Communication... maybe your lady likes to talk about everything and you just want her to shut up, until she say something that you feel is disrespectful to you. Then square one again because, she want a partner mentality in the relationship. Someone who will be their for her and comfort her in her time... a lister. We feel disrespected and shut down, great right! Money.. can fall into a few things also like protection. If we can't provide and she doesn't feel protected.. funny how that works.

Not for anyone at all... just me jotting down something I have learned along the way from some great men and women in my life. Everything is supported by the scriptures and I have seen examples of great relationships. I guess I'm just blessed, but still fall into traps like everyone else.

TGBTG

The power of the tongue... confessions

2009-03-02T00:29:00.003-05:00

It has been on my heart to write this down and truly explain how powerful this topic is to me. In a great way, it's part of the many testimonies of my life.

There are many things that I have confessed over, prayed over and believed in. Some of these things include: A godly man that I would marry some day (I did!), jobs, renewed relationships with family, choices regarding school, finances, uncommon pregnancy are just a few things that I (we) have confessed over.

One especially that is dear to my heart in the last few months is my uncommon pregnancy. When D and I started to think about this idea of a child in our future, I held on and was encouraged by my pastor's testimony. She confessed daily that her pregnancies would be healthy and free from the usual inconveniences. So, when I heard that, I began my own. Its amazing to look back in the last nine months and see what GOD has done with that confession. Not only are people amazed by the lack of sickness that I have experienced, but how 'smooth' everything has gone. Its awesome to say that we've been confessing and believing that this would happen throughout the whole pregnancy and it has. Another realm of the pregnancy that I have been confessing and believing for is that the baby would come early. Its amazing to see how many people from their own experiences choose to not be in faith with you or even not encouraging for what you are hoping for. They realize how supernatural the first 9.5 months of the pregnancy have been for us, and then they decide to state what happens in the 'world's bird's eye' of pregnancy life. At first it was really discouraging, but I really am still claiming and confessing that I do deliver early, but in GOD's time. To some degree, I don't think people understood/understand that I have held on to these confessions, and I have seen them come true in many areas of my life. But, it also makes me realize that when someone is believing for a husband, child, or a job, I really think about how I respond to them, because often its something that they may have been confessing/believing in for a long time.

One awesome testimony that I hold dear to my heart is when I was younger, I made a list of all the characteristics that I wanted in my husband. Some of them were superficial desires, like looks or that he enjoyed playing/watching sports, but then I had many others that included: had a good job, provided for his family, prayed with me and his family, had a personal relationship with GOD (just to name a few). I referred to that list often when I met new men/boys back in the day. I can honestly say that through tragedy/sadness, comes goodness and how awesome GOD truly is. I look at my marriage and the person that GOD put into my life, and see so many wonderful things. My husband is a great provider for my (our) family. I see his relationship with God manifesting to new levels for him and his family. He encourages me to strengthen my relationship through meditation and prayer. He has interpersonal relationship skills that covers over me where mine are lacking. So, I look back to the past in positive ways of reflection and see how GOD was only preparing and molding me to meet, be courted by, marry, and now have his children. But, I held true to the things that I believe GOD wanted me to have in my future husband. I sought GOD and believed that these characteristics were things that would be possessed in a future husband that GOD would have for me. We can truly be powerful if we set our eyes on things above and believe in the impossible for GOD to make them possible in HIS time.

LJ

The time is now...

2009-02-19T22:04:00.001-05:00

Broken... Baby... Breakthrough...

more later

tgbtg

Music... makes the people, come together

2009-02-15T18:47:00.002-05:00

I love long road trips because it gives you time to pray, listen, and just plain rock out to old cd's. This weekend was no exception for and my victims (wife and baby) who got to sit and hear me sing.

I heard a few songs and they brought back some very cool memories for me:

Listen to our hearts by Geoff Moore & SCC
This song hits me in a few ways b/c it was at a time when I was broken and lost. It was also a time when I first started to see that very sexy lady Leah Jo, lol. Every time it comes on it is bittersweet because that is a time in my life, I would never ever want to change. This is my favorite lines to the song;

We will use the words we know
To tell you what an awesome God You are
But words are not enough
To tell you of our love
So listen to our hearts

Top of my lungs by P,C &D
This song will forever remind me of my the pregnancy of my first child. Every time this song comes on, I turn it up and rock out. Its like giving God total praise and nothing even considering who or what is next to you, looking at you, or just thinks you are crazy. I am so amazed and grateful and God has allowed Leah to have a supernatural 36.5 weeks so far and that the unknown is going so smooth. Check out these lyrics;

Words of worship
Rise like a river within me
Thoughts to express are so many
Wanna bless You, God

Can’t be silent
I think of the mercies You show me
My lips begin overflowing
Great is Your love

Such gratitude
For all that You do
Jesus to You

These guys are really becoming a fan of Phillips, Craig and Dean because everything they make seems to have one main focus and that is to praise God.

A few more songs...

Praise you in this storm by Casting Crowns
This song brings back all the memories about buying out first house in Lansing. It took a lot for me to make a decision and it was not until I knew relaxed in God, then things were great.

I belong to you by Rev. Rance Allen
This song goes way back b/c in my childhood. I used to pretend that I was a preacher and we played church in our bedroom. My brother and sister took care of the worship and I brought the word. My mother used to play gospel music all day on Sunday and we would sign along. I miss the closeness I had with my sibling and the fun we had in church.

I love singing and listening to lyrics of songs. So many forms to listen to (worship, praise, contemporary, and hymns, etc.) I fall in the worship area, and enjoy mediation and spend time with God and thanking him for all his blessing.

What song and style are you??

TGBTG

Friends or Foe

2009-02-06T12:22:00.002-05:00

I heard one of the greatest quote about family and those close to you, a few days ago. Listening to WCSG, the host asked, "Why would you try to score against a teammate". I thought about it and then realized that to may times we fight against those we love (or suppose to). For the life of me, I can't understand why if we bump, knock, speak ill, or do something to those we don't know, but quickly rectify the issue... then hold any kind of wrong doing our family has done for years. His question is why won't we help our family score... why won't we lend a hand, and make sure everything is okay? We need to be happy about what God is doing for families and our families. Stop doing things with hidden agendas behind them and just enjoy one another. I continue to make sure, I(we) blessed any and everyone we can, with everything God has given to us. I have to look past hurt and ill feelings because I still want grace and forgiveness in my life. Remeber God will not forgive you if you can't extend forgiviness to someone else. I'm taking a very good look at myself.

TGBTG

We wrote history...

2009-01-20T19:57:00.002-05:00

I will never forget the 20th day of January, 2009! History was made in a country that is one of the greatest countries on the face of the earth. President B.H Obama took oath and is now the 44 President of the United States, as the first black president. The crowd was full of black, white, old, young, veterans, seasoned people, and anyone and everyone who weathered the cold.

I watched and listen to a man who will need so much help to correct a land in turmoil, fear, hurt, and is distracted by everything.. but God. I don't expect him to change the world in 4 years, nor do I expect him to work miracles. I pray that God will have his hand on this country and its leaders. I pray that wisdom will fill the room and heads in the way in which they should lead. I believe that God placed in the White House who he wanted. I still firmly believe the heart of a king is in the hands of God. Obama is our leader, but as Americans we need so badly to seek God. I will celebrate a moment that I never thought I would ever see. I will rejoice in a time where a color barrier has been cracked, plowed, and broken down. I smile because I have seen change, while I'm alive.

TGBTG

Finished for now

2009-01-18T09:38:00.002-05:00

Over the last couple of weeks, I have been stressed, frustrated, doubtful, and down right angry about my situation. I question would I be this mess if I was still in Detroit? I have questioned where if any help would come from, emotionally, spiritually, and found nothing. God has a way of dropping in my spirit, past teaching from my pastor in Detroit.. blessing comes after the confusion. Now, I can't complain to much about being blessed because I know he has taken care of me more than even I felt is sufficient. I really needed someone at that time... NOTHING. Not saying my wife was not enough, but she and child should be relaxing and getting ready to meet each other face to face.

So, we began to sow seed again for what we are believing in and would you believe it, God showed up again. I guess not having TV for about 3 weeks, and listening for the call of God would have paid off. Now, for those who don't know about all our testimonies, everything that we have has been some how blessed in such a way, that if not for God, I don't know how it happened. We call, and gave a price that no sane person would have taken. The sane person called back and drop out asking price down, lol. So we are paying a lot less than what they wanted, and kept us within our budget. The greatest part is, that it is where my wife wanted to stay at anyway. The colors are great, and God is awesome.

I am so grateful for all the prayers that have gone up for us. I needed this to happen for me to see that God is in control and he will answer in his time. I also, needed to see that my line to God has to be connected at all times and not just the time I need him. I felt alone for the most part because I was looking for someone to rescue us. What I got was some time on my face in the presence of God and a renewed confidence that he has always been there.

"This is a call, this is a call out.. because every time I fall down, I reach out to you"

TGBTG

My prayer

2009-01-11T21:22:00.004-05:00

It has truly been a awesome hoilday for our family. God is really blessing and testing us in these times. I am so glad a have such a confidence in God to provide for us and he has never fail so far! Anywho, I have been day dreaming a lot, about the time when my child arrives and grows up. How I get to play sports, talk about the bird and the bees, and really show them how a man and a women should interact. Tough job... right!! I am so excited to share the word of God, and train in the way God is leading. It will be fun to see how this changes the very dyinamics of the family. I know the future will be bright for them because we are sowing seed in their name already, and fasting a praying against things that I know are hinderance. I can't wait to shape their future and help them become whatever it is they want to be. To create a path where the struggles I face won't knock them down. The very curses from my father and my father, father will be no more. These thing scare me because I have had to handle them in my walk.

I hope this child is like their mother in a scense, they are creative and intellegent. They will in the mist of problems, seek God and read his word. I hope they have the same heart to forgive and look for the greater good in situation even when it looks bad. I hope they can stand up to grief, disappointment, and hurt. I hope this kid has the will to step out of the box and try new things, meet new people and in the mist of it all stand alone.

I hope my child is like me in the ways that even with nothing, thought prayer I have made it. I hope they can survive the door that will be closed down because everyone won't understand them. I hope they can say what they mean, mean what they say, and yet in still be a real person. I hope they find themselves quickly and not allow ingorance to dictate their relationship with people in this world. I hope they have the strength like me to push thought the "no's" and still be humble enought to admit when they are wrong in front of people, family, and friends. I hope they have a focus to better themsleves, family and all that matter to them in this life.

I hope they have a giving heart to help whenever they can without looking for someone to pay them. I hope they have compassion for lost souls and those who don't know Christ. It is my sincere pray that God keeps, protects, and bless my child.

TGBTG

PS.. if you are in the praying mood, throw up a few for us.

Learning to live with what life gives you...

2009-01-07T22:33:00.005-05:00

and thankful for who your sharing your life with!

Its been an interesting couple of weeks that is for sure. Happy that the holidays went well, but sad to see what was left behind (water). Some of you know what I am talking about. Sorry to say, that the majority of the cleanup has been done by my wonderful husband. From packing up the kitchen to moving all my books once again. He has not complained (maybe once when some collective plate fell on him!), and I need to give him alot of thanks. Thanks, babe!

Many of the things that he has done so I can rest have not gone unnoticed. I appreciate all of them. And, he knows to keep Cheerios and milk nearby and some chocolate. I know we will get through this time, and there is no one I would rather do it with than him. He brightens up my day by singing the Lion King (all the way to church!!) and making up songs for our baby! Thumper, now named Jabs, is always on the move, especially when he/she hears daddy singing.

Most of all, its been a moment in time that we have relied upon God's strength, timing and wisdom. I can see how we have grown through this and allowed it to make us stronger. But, we've also had our bumps in our road as well. I recognize your responsible protection over this family, and thank you for it. I love you.

Well, time for us (lil one and I) to go to bed for some relaxing zzz's with a hopeful tomorrow ahead of us and a thankful heart!

TGBTG - the wifey and child

Radiothon

2008-12-19T20:45:00.003-05:00

Merry Christmas... Merry Christmas... Merry Christmas...Happy Holiday!! Wow, I am so excited and just at a lost for words because God as done it again! Again! and...AGAIN! In 3 day and a lot of prayer, we raised more than $215,000! Special thanks to STAR 105.7's own, Tommy and Brook, Kelly Iris, and Todd Michaels for telling the message of this great hospital... Helen DeVos Children's Hospital.

I can't explain how a snow day could turn into my best day ever! Not to mention my father-in law brought in the remaining stocking for the NICU babies. Thanks for all the prayers and I have to say I love you Leah for sharing me.

TGBTG

Insight

2008-12-07T17:44:00.008-05:00

Its been awhile however, my life has not been that busy.. lol NOT!

God is awesome as always and I need to give him praise for keeping us! We are looking for ways to bless others this Christmas. It has really been on our hearts and we have done a few things, but when we sit back a realized how God has had his hand on us, its just not enough. Any ideas of how we can show God's love this season?

Radiothon is upon me and I'm going to take a cot to Helen DeVos Children's Hospital Foundation because it will become my home. Funny thing is everything is going well! God is good, but so much more to do. I need volunteers to help answer phones on December 17th, 18th, 19th at Celebrations Cinemas South. This is my biggest problem, but God provides!

Make sure you tune into STAR 105.7 on December 17th, 18th, and 19th, and hear the stories of miracle kids from the hospital. It is really neat to have believers (Tommy and Brook, and Todd Michaels) helping me with this. We have a big goal however, I know God will move and show himself in a way, that in the end we will just have to laugh and applaud him again.

Baby is doing well and we fix his crib this weekend. We are going to start getting the frames on the wall, and I am working on her toy chest.. may need help. We are excited about all the kicking and rough housing baby is doing to Leah, lol. Keep praying for us because we need each and every prayer possible to make it.

TGBTG

little blurb I found un-published

2008-11-12T11:08:00.004-05:00

Here is my little blurb that I wanted to share.

Now that it is snowing out here in MI, I am getting excited for the holidays and the things to come. I am excited to replenish/restore/recreate/create/establish holiday traditions for our family. Its an exciting time to think about what we are thankful for and how God has truly blessed us throughout the year.

Had to do it....

2008-11-06T08:27:00.003-05:00

I know a lot of people won't agree with is email! However, for a kid who never thought in his lifetime, we would be able to put aside slavery, racism, and the invisible ceiling of where black people and women can go... we did it November 4th. American, yet again, has made history and elected the first black man into office... congratulations Barack Obama!

Now, what is really funny to me about people is the way we react is things. Example #1, gas prices are now down to a low and we are praising the oil gods like they did us a favor. But if you look back, the gas was this way only about a year ago. The barrel of oil price is lower however, the price of gas is higher than it was a year ago. Why are we happy, when actually the oil companies are still making profit on the barrel of oil, and still charging us more. Gas should be clearly under 2 bucks... if the reason why it got so high in the first place, was the cost of the barrel. Why are we not mad?

If you look around the world, the diversity of leaders in other nations are people of color, women, and minorities. America is the land of choice and freedom right? Just got our first taste of diversity in office and some American can predicting the end of the world. Why is America so behind and not upset about it?

His nation is on it way to hell in a hand basket. Schools are bad, banks can't be trusted, corporations are fail because of bad decisions, and CEO's are leaving with millions. Why is this behavior acceptable. Where are all those AMERICANS that what to pray!! Why are we not mad about this?

These are not problems that have happen in 2 days....

TGBTG

Does November 4th really matter....

2008-11-01T15:17:00.004-04:00

America is on its way to the crapper and we are spending billions to elect someone who really can't do anything for us anyway. Whether it is Big Mac or Barack, this country has moved away from its real ruler anyway. Built on the saying "in God we trust", but do we? No matter who wins the big seat, things are not going to change overnight. We took pray out of school and they are circling out of control. We allow "in your face" sin to mount, in even the laws we pass. Place our God on Wall Street and it seems that its was as strong as the opinion of others. We only cry to our lord when we are attacked or something bad happens. Everything that is happening to us right now can be found in the scriptures:

Proverbs 1:24-26

²⁴Because I have called, and ye refused; I have stretched out my hand, and no man regarded;

²⁵But ye have set at nought all my counsel, and would none of my reproof:

²⁶I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when your fear cometh;

We cry out, why has God done this to us... when really I believe its mocking time.

TGBTG

How great is our God!

2008-10-21T23:13:00.003-04:00

As I think to myself.... I just think back of the past 6 years of my life. The ups and downs, all in a good way! I am very excited for tomorrow and have been prayerful for a great report. I still believe that this pregnancy will continue to be supernatural... but I am ready to switch my confession to my kid will be an awesome, teachable, God-fearing, lovable, funny, mavericky kid (my list is endless!). I (we) have so many plans and dreams already for our family and it's exciting to dream and plan of how they may (or may not) work out. Its comforting to know as we head to bed that God is in control of today and tomorrow! How great is our God!

Shabach

LJ

One more day.. one more night..

2008-10-21T22:00:00.002-04:00

The title says it all about what I'm feeling about tomorrow and the rest of my life. Dream mean something don't they... God I'm excited and in the same breath wanting to control everything! I gonna miss the time I took for granted with my wife, alone. I want a good report about baby, my wife and this supernatural pregnancy. I want a boy, however I still struggle with what God has put before me to handle. My heart wishes for a girl, but the development of my sensitive side scares the nerves right our my skin (even now I'm shaking). We find out in less that 16 hours and the only song I can think of is one more day... Check this song out, Wow!

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you

tear,
TGBTG

with thanks

2008-10-15T16:15:00.002-04:00

Currently I am sitting up in bed and typing this post with my beautiful wife sleeping and my child kicking her. It is such a great feeling to know that I will be a father in less than 4 months, and a reminder that this new experience does not come with instructions. I know that God has given us everything we could possibly need on earth already... however I pray I don't mess this up. I am so grateful for my wife who has not complained once about carrying that gift. She is a lot stronger than what I give her credit for. Keep praying that this pregnancy continues to be supernatural and that God keep his hand on our family.

the end
TGBTG

Awesome Creator

2008-10-06T19:06:00.003-04:00

To think that we are on the earth which in perspective is a golf ball and the sun would be the size of 15 feet across. Somewhere you are on this earth and He takes care of you! How awesome!

Oh, and He is the Creator of all things big and small! This also reminds me how God is in control!

from HaEL... not as cool as EnyaWeD

2008-09-15T20:28:00.003-04:00

Well, it's been a while since I have been here so I have a few things to update everyone on. Right now seems like a good time because I have been given maybe a few more minutes to ponder and think about what's going on around me.

My job at NHCA is going well. I have really enjoyed my students and have met some of the parents. I am getting to know my co-workers and establishing new friendships while trying to take the time to maintain the old friendships. I am teaching Earth science, chemistry, biology1 and biology 2. I have already learned so much about my students and their lives, as well as being a better teacher.

I also committed myself to teaching at Davenport University. After a the first week of headaches, I think it will be more smooth in the future weeks and in the coming semesters. I have enjoyed it thus far as well.

I also had a great talk with my lil sorority sister today. I realized I miss my sisters and the everyday college hubbub. I have memories that are fun to remember and can appreciate them while keeping them in the past. I am looking forward to making new memories in the next few months and year!

I'm sure I will be back at some time this week....

Key stokes of EnyaWeD

2008-09-11T21:08:00.004-04:00

It's been a while however, we're back (at least DeWayne)! I have not wrote anything about life in about a month... things have really changed in that short of a time. Right now I'm about 13 weeks into watching the making of a baby... yes folks, this will change my life, lol. September is providing me stress because its busy for my school program at work, which is suppose to bring in more than $100 grand!! I have a sore throat to poop, and trying to reach my sensitive side (heaven help me).

Keep praying for my family because we need it! I share some detail with my wife about what I believe God has for me to do with family. You ever stop and wonder why he picked you to do something... realizing that if you just do his will, the setup is done already. I just got a funny feeling that his plan is not going to be easy! What sucks is everything that I'm face with is something that I've been through, going through, or either working through. Just have to get the men to understand that! Men suck but I rather lose face at talking about it, than to lose them.

On a fun note I had man night with Marc and ate a ton of wings... maybe 25! This night was great and relaxing. He decided he wanted to pen a rap. Wise words from my brother in law Vanilla M, and I quote; "My butthole is on fire... Woodchuck is on sale at Meijer... Have fun with Mom." Marc (aka Vanilla M), I am planning to make a full song out of this when my brain does not hurt.

I love hanging out with family and friends! My wife has been a big help in taking care of my sick behind. I love you Leah!

the end
TGBTG

Life

2008-08-14T22:04:00.002-04:00

I am really tired as I write this post. I am not only drain physically but also emotionally. Have you ever considered measuring yourself to what you believe in your heart, is your best self. I feel like I constantly fail God because I keep giving into my flesh... so, really I fail God. Lord forgive me to fall short, and the things that I allow my flesh to toss me into.

I really just want to get way!! I should be happy for the LIFE God has given however, I want to run away from it. I want to run away from the exhaustion, and hide from my life duties. I fell run down.

Get over myself.. God has been to good. I'm up now... thanks!

TGBTG

No one else can make me feel the colors that you bring...

2008-07-31T22:49:00.004-04:00

I don't have a song to sing or a quote, I just need to tell you that I love you, babe. I know that I haven't been the easiest to deal with and maybe a little frustrating. I am sorry. I love you a lot and I appreciate the things you do for us. I know everything will work out to His plan, and for us to continue in our destiny for His Kingdom business. Thanks babe and i love you, here's to you...

Struggling..... help is around the corner

2008-07-31T00:32:00.000-04:00

Left my fear by the side of the road
I hear You speak, won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You, Lord
Is You, Lord

Relaxing and with so much insight

2008-07-20T18:04:00.004-04:00

God is so good!!! I should have used that as my title for this post. I got to hang out with about 30 men from my church in Detroit this weekend. What a blessing... what a time of sharpening each other. I got revelations from so many bothers who spoke into my life. This year is going to be such a blessing for my family. Here is a piece of one confessions that I want to share:

My family will not face any financial captivity; that time is over and God will surely bless us.

This means so much because I know where we are headed and I'm already blessed beyond measure. I can't wait to sow seed next week into the ground of Detroit World Outreach. I got such an expectation of what God will do in our life. I'm so excited that some barriers that I have had problems with will fall down... I got help now.... I'm ready to fight now against things I know I have to remove from my life. Just you wait.

the end
TGBTG

The new doo

2008-07-10T14:37:00.001-04:00

With summer raging into the ozone days - I needed a new look... so I donated my hair! It was about time for a new change! I know that d was super excited because of his earlier post...

What's your new song lately?

2008-07-08T23:39:00.002-04:00

O SING to the LORD a new song:sing unto the LORD, all the earth. PSALM 96:1

What have you been singing or not singing about lately? There is so much that we can be thankful about!

So many times we start our prayers with requests and forget to first praise HIM and thank HIM for being TRULY awesome GOD in our lives. Let us not forget our Creator, Redeemer, Adonai, Father, Jehovah Jireh...

ljc tgbtg

2008-07-08T22:38:00.002-04:00

People....

This could be one of the most happiest day of my life!!!! Thats all I got..

the end

tgbtg

REAlly quiCK

2008-07-07T22:18:00.003-04:00

I planning in the next couple of weeks to change this blogs name to "in my world" b/c I feel like I'm dominating the time in this avenue to sharing with the world.

Any who... I am again excited about the direction I'm heading in and knowing that God is still i the driving seat. You know right now, I am kind of disappointed because I know I agreed to something and I don't think it being followed. I feel like your word is bond and if you ask something of someone, then you should carry out the same request.

I am begin to value very different things than I did before. Can people change what they like overnight??? Time seems to becoming more important to me and wanting to spend more time with God. Fellowship with people of the same mind..

I'm off to hanging out with myself... and spending some more time singing to myself. I love SINGING people.

the end
TGBTG

3 in the morning....

2008-07-01T03:20:00.002-04:00

Now the first question my wife will ask is why an I up. I DONT REALLY KNOW!! I just felt the need to share how the last few weeks have been going for me. I am so glad Kerri was returned back to us safe, in the US America. Dad and Mark are back from a trip of a lifetime... and G$ returned safe from the great white! To God be the glory for all of those blessings and protection for our family.

All those things are enough to bring me to tears (I could just be very sleepy) because God has been so good to us however, he helped me with a struggle within myself this week. I got to hangout with this kewl kid name Ike and take care of him (his parents must be desperate) and tend to his needs with my wife last week. Prior to even knowing that we would have a chance to watch him, I had been dealing with what I thought was the missing piece in my life. I want a baby... and everyone around us has one or is in the process of a raisin in the pouch. God why not us... except as I fed, held, hug, kissed, read, and prayed with Ike, I realized that I am not ready for a kid. Not because of my parenting skill but because of my husbanding (new word) skill. LEAH I'M SORRY! Thanks Isacc (Ike dawg... throw em up)

I think Leah likes self-help books.. but to tell you the truth I really think the books she bring into the house could be used as council for our lives. We are really protected in who we let speak into our lives. When you have a problem that seems to continue to hard press your second most relationship (marriage) or any relationship for that matter, we should seek advice and council from those we hold in accountability spots in our lives. From the people who have been their and made it past this mark in the road by God's grace.

the end

TGBTG

IMPORTANT????

2008-06-30T13:26:00.001-04:00

Priorities

We all have them right? Why does it seem that when we should check them… we don’t? I am so sick and tired of selfish people with the intentions of only taking care of themselves. I’m guilty of it, and working hard to make sure I take time for the things that are important. Those “nouns” may not be around for a long as you think. Keep smiling and praying because we need it bad.

TGBTG

In the power of your love...

2008-06-07T22:03:00.003-04:00

This song has been ringing in my spirit for the last couple of days. I know I love to song because it catchy however, it really speaks to me because I so need some renewal in my life. The course does just what it says... and I'm so glad he is in control.

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I’ve found in You
Lord I’ve come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the power of Your love

And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love

Peace and love
TGBTG

Words from ....

2008-06-05T18:44:00.002-04:00

My roots are planted in the past,

Though my life is changing fast,

Who I am is who I want to be.

A single mom, who works too hard,

Who loves her kids and never stops.

With gentle hands and the heart of a fighter.

I'm a survivor.

This is something that we all can be inspired about, LOL

$3.1mil, throw em up!

2008-06-01T21:48:00.003-04:00

Wow, what a week it was for us! I just wanted to throw one out there for my awesome husband. He had his first event at Spectrum It was by far his largest event to this day! He was so busy with scripts, interviews, and writing letters. I just wanted him to know that I love him very much. I remember very distinctly one of his first events, which I will share with you...

http://www.cm-life.com/home/index.cfm?event=displayArticlePrinterFriendly&uStory_id=dcfaa64a-4a91-4996-b483-2da06873a204

There is also a fun picture of DeWayne that was cover page that day (the top pic)! He was preparing for a snowball to hit his face for one of their fundraisers that week.

I also have some distinct memories of many pancake breakfasts that DeWayne put on and is now a semesterly tradition for CMU to expect from his fraternity.

Oh how the years go by.... Love ya babe!

The return of the Ker "one 757 to the Other"

2008-05-18T12:24:00.006-04:00

In the return of the Ker, I wrote a song, inspired by my wife (whom has pushed me to write down some of my songs). I am using the music from the Dove 2008 song of the year, Casting Crowns "East to the West". Please enjoy and submit comments and if you don't like it, just talk to my wife who is the reason that I'm be posting my song on this blog for a long time to come.

one 757 to the Other:

Here Ker is Lord and she thinking..
about the best place to start her trip
Have to forget about the Dorrian's
and their famous artichoke dip

Give her peace as she thinks about it
Let it echo in her mind
send her a goat or a star as a sign...

I know you cast of thoughts as far as
Honduras to Michigan
and Kerri pray before you now cause
she will you trust to end

But, yesterday she posted..
and she too far away
she on her behalf, we're pray

Jesus, can you show us just how
awesomely cool, we know you are
Because without you, we know were nothing
don't want to waste the time.. just tell us Please!

Your mercy is an added plus for rest...
and you know just how far Ker is
from the rest of us
one 757 to the other

Ker, when you touch down the drama began
meeting Tim and his 10 year old lil friend
Cute Issac with a smile that....
will melt right through your skin

and that day is yours Ker,
it just one big happy day
family and friends will come and play!

Jesus, can you show us just how
awesomely cool, we know you are
Because without you, we know were nothing
don't want to waste the time.. just tell us Please!

Your mercy is an added plus for rest...
and you know just how far Ker is
from rest of us
one 757 to the other

I bet your wishing you're deaf
to stay out of the family mess
Keep on praying, he will take us through
I bet it just a test

Can't live by what we feel
but by God's truth your word reveals
Ker, we're so glad to have you back
can't wait for the 18th, and thats a fact....

That really is a fact.................

Jesus, can you show us just how
awesomely cool, we know you are
Because without you, we know were nothing
don't want to waste the time.. just tell us Please!

Your mercy is an added plus for rest...
and you know just how far Ker is
from rest of us
one 757 to the other

**fade out

forewords for the song
http://music.yahoo.com/Casting-Crowns/East-To-West/lyrics/46182432

directed by TGBTG records
Off the top of my head productions, inc
Executive Producer, HS
Producer, DC

D's roundtable

2008-05-13T22:13:00.002-04:00

A few things I really need to get off my mind....

I believe that if God is saying something to one person w/o confirmation, then maybe that person is just hearing things. What happens when he is talking to three or four, in the same circle, hmmm. What happens if we don't move when he talks to us. This is the time that we lose what is important to us. Why do we side step important issues and even joke about them, like it is nothing. Or just pretend like we don't care about certain things, people, and places.

A short story for you... their once was a kid that had a dream about a dear friend. This friend was very close to the kid and needed help most of the time. The friend shared a very valuable treasure with the kid. Well the kid got tired of helping this friend and wrote him off because he felt that the friends problems were not his. After a number of calls and signs to help, the kid refused. The kid cut all ties with the friend and the treasure b/c is was easy to forget and it did not really matter to the kid anyway. One night the kid had a dream which he felt was God sent, however did not respond. He received a call of a similar vision from another kid from another village however, did not move. The vision was confirmed and he did not move. One day the kid decided to go see his friend b/c it bothered him to much, only to find out the treasure was lost. The lost was only b/c of disobedience and the kid hopes someday he will get a chance to regain that treasure. The really lost is the time he could have taken to stop this from happening in the first place. Fixing the problem has taken almost twice to time however, just helping the friend could have protected the treasure in the first place.

What are you doing to avoid time lost with problems... Why wait!!
TGBTG

how we came, TGBTG

2008-05-09T22:16:00.002-04:00

Our road to where we are has been a rough but trusting road. I have not really given all the praise to whom all praise is due. Thank God that we had the faith to rehearse our living testimony and for his blessing thought out this new journey. This may be a long posting!

Many people close to us know that we started to really pray for somethings financially, spiritually, and job wise for our family. We even threw up a prayer for having kids soon. The end of last year send some ups and downs but we again could continue to hear the voice of God saying... rewind what I have continually done for you and trust me. The funny thing is that, when we try to wrap our little minds around how he going to do it, instead of just doing his will and watching the miracle happen, we waste so much time. These last couple of months added stress about jobs, worry about health, and a battle about the roles in our relationship. Why can't we ever just listen?

The testimony starts off with me asking for a raise of just $2 dollars... $2 additional dollars for all the hard work and extra duties for my past employee. We really did not want Leah to have to commute to teach for the extra income. I counted on God to bless her some way and fast. Again, I was told to trust him, however, the semester before when we increased our titles and our giving to advance the kingdom... God increase us with a double blessing in Leah's job (I thought it was coming to me) and the increase took care of a lot of things. This time I followed the voice and asked for more money. Now sometimes we think that a NO mean NO. The only thing is my faith is to strong! My boss told me that there was nothing they could do and that I'm really not doing anything more than expected. I WAS DOING HER JOB!!! She could not get me any more money. So in the meantime, I got a second job to make a few more dollars... Blockbuster Video. Things for me got really bad for me over the next couple of months and my rock.. my wife helped me deal with the stress and the rejection of believing that God was not doing anything to help. I will never forgot the message that my pastor told us. As a child of God, there is nothing you can't have. If God has it for you, he will get it to you. There are blocks in our way, but the other side of confussion is blessing.

Leah and I started to sow seed into the church. We sowed seed for Leah education and just a change in my status. Then on January 21, God had moved however I did not know it. I had just got out of a meeting with my boss who told me that I'm not being a team player, and pretty much told me I sucked. Upset and just plain mad, I sat at my desk and recieve a call. A resume sent and two days later and interview. How does that happen... and why would one of the biggest Michigan Hospital be seeking me out. Excited and scared at the same time. Its funny that we want God to move, but when he does we ask a million and one questions about the open door. Leah and I had so many questions about the house, her school, and gas. Again we trusted!

When thing feel right...they just feel right. God blessed us beyond my expectations by doubling me to a point where my check represents both my current and Leah current income combined. Thank you Jesus! We were able to rent our house out to a lovely expecting couple and even sign on to a townhouse in Grand Rapids that we both love. Leah will be pursuing her Doctoral degree from Western Michigan with all expenses paid. We are in the mist of fighting for our families in spiritual battles. Why did he pick Grand Rapids for us. I have to admit, I miss the heck out of my nieces and nephews but I got a second chance. I have a beautiful nephew named Issac whom I would give the world to. He's got some awesome people looking out for him. We are so blessed to a point of awe. I love my job and know this is my ticket to a dream that I thought I lost, knowing my rib had to be praying for me. I have always wanted to be an executive director for a Foundation by 30 years old. Leah I love you so much.. thanks for remembering those things and being so supportive. This is why, I will never stop giving back to God, the church, and anyone who needs help. I know where I came from... not going back! I can't beat him giving, no matter how hard I try. So for all who wanted to know, that's how and why we are here.

TGBTG

Destiny

2008-05-09T13:00:00.003-04:00

One of the things that has been impressed upon my heart are thoughts concerning our (my) destiny. It's awesome to know and believe that the chosen path you take has already been prepared for you and God already knows where you will go, who you will meet, whom shall you follow and who you shall work for/with while here on earth. So, here are a few verses that I have captured to grow more in my faith and believing the destiny He's prepared for me to work in His Kingdom doing His kingdom business.

The Lord will always lead you. He will satisfy your needs in dry lands and give strength to your bones. You will be like a garden that has much water, like a spring that never runs dry. Isaiah 58:11

People make plans in their minds, but only the Lord can make them come true. Depend on the Lord in whatever you do, and your plans will succeed. Proverbs 16:1,3
This verse really speaks to me that we just need to speak to Him and He already knows what we need... He's just waiting for that prayerful act of submission - a request and spoken desire.

Do not change yourselves to be like the people of this world, but be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect. Romans 12:2

Be blessed

Raindrops and Memories

2008-05-07T11:52:00.003-04:00

Today I am reminded of a childhood song:
It's raining, it's pouring;
The old man is snoring.
Bumped his head
And he went to bed
And he couldn't get up in the morning.

Memories are can be a scary reality but they also can be happy. It's interesting to me to compare memories of old college times and even growing up and see how different we may have viewed certain times.

I am reminded of the time DeWayne and I were just dating in the summer of 2003. We talked the whole night through and saw our first sunrise together. Last night, I woke up and went downstairs to realize that he was awake. We talked and went to breakfast and would have seen our second sunrise (if it wasn't cloudy) together.

I was telling DeWayne the other day of the "everyday shirt" song that Ker used to sing. I guess I only remember the chorus... Since, the more we hang out with MG, D finds out more stuff about my(our) childhood than I might have let on. Thanks, Marc Daniel. But, it makes us who we are, that's for sure. :-) It would be neat to have a written collection of our memories from our childhood. My siblings and I didn't always have the easiest childhood/early adulthood, but we did make some great memories as individuals, siblings, son and daughters, and grandchildren. We forget those great times and they need to be remembered more often.

Here's a few that I can think of:
Fresh bread from Hilltop from Grandma D.
Cooking/playing with my sisters in the 5-headed trees up north
Mom driving us to GCS
Flowers and cake for every birthday (spam for kerri's birthday!)
Running in the mailbox on my new bike... lol